Depression Forum

New here

2012-11-13T21:12:45Z

Hi there, I’m new to this forum and I suppose relatively new to depression too.
I noticed a change in my boyfriend a couple of months ago, but he is the type to keep things bottled up until he can take no more. Things came to a head last Tuesday where he text me after leaving for work saying he was leaving me, that he was so depressed he could take no more and could not live with me any more. This was a complete shock to me as I didn’t realise it was so severe.
He came back to me in the evening and we agreed he needed to see a Doctor and get some help. Its now been a week, he has gone back on his promise to see his GP, refuses to talk to me and is now saying he doesn’t want to live anymore and he would be better off dead.
I’m so worried and frightened of what he might do. We’ve been together 4 1/2 years and had a brilliant relationship until this.
He has these massive highs followed by crushing lows where he gets so angry at his xbox he frightens me. Then he sulks and ignores me, saying horrible things and refusing my hugs or kisses. Then he feels bad for doing it and cries and is inconsolable.
I sent an email to the Samaritans today asking them to get in touch with him, as I know he wont do it himself. I’m in tears writing this.
I just don’t know what else to do, I feel like I have lost my boyfriend, my best friend and all the dreams we had for the future. He doesn’t seem to want to/be able to do anything to fix this, just sinking deeper and deeper into this pit of despair.
I just need some support right now :(

Hello again

2012-10-31T20:38:29Z

Here I am again I have had a good couple of months but have taken a massive step back.
The curtain of darkness is coming down again.

feeling weird… what do i call this feeling?

2012-09-28T18:46:20Z

i dont know how i feel.. i dont feel sad… i dont feel happy… i feel a little bit hyper ... but nothing out the ordinary.. im going to the doctors on monday to review my medication as im on 20mg of fluoxetine which will be a month by monday.. like im in my own little bubble? is this a good or bad thing that i feel like this?

Feeling odd, numb, scared.

2012-11-09T16:45:58Z

I have been taking fluoxetine for 4 months now and i must admit, i did have side effects at first but then after a while i started to feel amazing. Now it has all disappeared again. I feel like anxiety is taking over, i keep having random panic attacks which i haven’t had in months. I also have shaky hands and legs basically all the time. When it comes to being happy, i can think myself happy for like 5 minutes or so when something good happens but i dont experience euphoria anymore. Then again, when something bad happens, even a little mistake or someone tells me off, i hit the rock bottom without even thinking it might just be a coinsidence. I hate being alone, so when my flatmate goes home for the weekend i feel like i don’t know what to do with myself. All i wanna do is sleep and im not interested in going out or doing things. I used to enjoy being alone, doing my own little things, going shopping etc, now, nothing. I can just have a panic attack by thinking about it. It’s terrible. I have been to the therapy previously but it didn’t help. I feel like there is no way out of it and im only 22 :(

Depression Can Be Fun in NHS Newsletter this month

2012-11-06T10:30:58Z

Depression Can Be Fun was asked by the NHS to write an article for this month’s NHS Positive Newsletter about the Hearing Voices Day we attended at the NHS Nottingham Recovery College. Click here and scroll to page 6 on the link for the article.

Post Natal Depression In The News

2012-11-01T08:24:08Z

Mother suffering with postnatal depression kills her two children. Click here for article in the news.
Click here for our expert’s article with information and support for postnatal depression.
Don’t suffer in silence. There is help and people who can and want to help. Post natal depression is an illness and therefore can be treated and you can get better. Just ask for help and go and see your GP.

guiltyness has nearly gone ... yet i still feel really depressed

2012-10-16T00:35:30Z

i dont want to live ...but i dont want to die… im gone from being suicidal .. to just existing in taking things a day at a time… the AD’s seem to numb my guilty feeling.. which i tihnk is a positive affect… but to be honest.. i thought once the suicidal thoughts went and i never ever thought the guiltyness would go… and even though its almost gone… the depression hasn’t improved.. im basically accepting the fact that i need to exist ... to make my family happy… i cant seem to handle friendship… for the past 6/7 years i have always had that “all or nothing” mentality… if someone is my friend i will treat them like family.. i will defend them in fights… (so much so i ended up getting excluded for fighting someone that was upsetting my friend) and this all or nothing ... feels like to much for me… i have “team mates” and yet ... i cba with any of them… they are actually a good bunch of lasses… but yet.. if i never seen them again i couldn’t care less… i also can go of someone so easily.. like all it takes is something small and i will hate them.. like full on ..never want to see them again… and i was wondering if anyone else feels like this? i think my depression has made it worse..

You are invited to a film about how psychosis is treated successfully in Finland this Thursday in Nottingham

2012-10-15T11:49:48Z

Click here to find out more about the film about treatment for psychosis showing at The Broadway Cinema in Nottingham at 1pm this Friday. Entry is free.

David Walliams talks about his depression in The Metro Magazine

2012-10-10T06:54:23Z

Click here to read David Walliams talking about his depression.

Having a very bad day !

2012-10-09T19:44:43Z

I am new to this forum and I was wondering if any one is taking FILISA along side their anti-depressants ?

I have been on Citalopram 20 mg sometime 40mg for about 11 years since my father died. A lot of things have happened since then with stress at work and my mother also died within these 11 years.

I now have been seen by my GP and have stop taking Citalopram and went straight on to Lustral 50mg and I am just coming to the end of my first packet .....but I also have been taking Filisa for about 4 days with Vegepa and I can say that I feeling worse over these past two days very down not wanting to talk to anyone and crying at work !!

Can it be these herbal tablets making me feel worse before I get better or are they no good to me :down: ?

I hope someone on here can help me with this ?