i dont know how i feel.. i dont feel sad… i dont feel happy… i feel a little bit hyper ... but nothing out the ordinary.. im going to the doctors on monday to review my medication as im on 20mg of fluoxetine which will be a month by monday.. like im in my own little bubble? is this a good or bad thing that i feel like this?

hi Clinging On.  I can’t telll you if it’s good or bad but I felt like it too.  I felt like I was always on the edge of everyone elses lives and co existing but on my own.  I felt numb.  I never knew if it was my medication or my depression.  It lasted months but I promise you that I don’t feel like that anymore.  I would definitely make a note of it to talk to your doc about on Monday though along with anything else that’s been concerning you.  I used to forget to ask stuff in my 1 appointment and be really mad as I’d have to wait until the next one.  I’d definitely write it down and take it in if I had my time again - which I hope I don’t!  Take care Clinging on.  Try and have a good weekend.  Will

Hello Clinging On, I am glad that you seem to have done a few nice things on your Birthday though I am disappointed with your football coach coming round on your Birthday to collect your kit.  I certainly hope s/he didn’t know it was your 21st otherwise that was very insensitive but then again s/he may not have even given it a second thought as many don’t.  I find a factor of people suffering from depression is people who think a lot and I often think that I think about things far too much and give everything too much effort and thought that it’s often exhausting!
I also felt numb Clinging on and felt like the world was whizzing by me whilst I stood by and watched in a daze.  I remember it not being a nice feeling but remember feeling I didn’t have the energy to ‘get back on the world’ (if that makes sense) if I’d wanted to so I just let it keep whizzing by for some years actually.
Hang on in there and I would tell your doctor about exactly how you are feeling if you can.  Again I don’t know if it was my depression or my medication or a combination.  Your doctor may have an answer for you.  I am glad that you are seeing the doctor after a month or taking your medication at this level to review it.  I look forward to hearing how it went if you care to let us know.  I do hope you can do something nice this weekend for yourself.  Best, Helen

i went to the doctors and told her how i have been my mam came in with me.. the doctor was nice but i seen a different doctor instead of the one i normally see… wont be making that mistake again! ... she asked if i wanted to increase the dose of the tablet im on and i said no because i was worried incase it made me feel more tired and fatigued? my mam mentioned she wanted me to see someone else .. think she wanted me to see a psychologist or something because i’m not getting better with the counseling i am already getting.. but she said i had to continue with it ..do my mam wasn’t happy about that!

my manager didnt know it was my birthday i dont think :S ... but my dad phoned him… and tried to explain the manager said to my dad that i have had plenty of chances and he wants commitment (which is a fair point) but he also said he didnt want to be my counselor.. which i was abit pissed off about because i haven’t mentioned any of this so i dont think he had a right to say that ...but eventually my dad managed to convince him .. so im glad about that ..

and what you wrote here “I also felt numb Clinging on and felt like the world was whizzing by me whilst I stood by and watched in a daze.  I remember it not being a nice feeling but remember feeling I didn’t have the energy to ‘get back on the world’ (if that makes sense) if I’d wanted to so I just let it keep whizzing by for some years actually.” feels exactly how i feel.. i feel like im just existing ... like i dont want to kill myself… yet i dont want to live..  i just dont likemy way of thinking anymore .. its as if everything is really calm or explosive… like arguements… and intense feelings.. yet feeling numb and paranoid .. i cant win really

Hi Clinging on, that’s great news that you’re back on the football team!  Well done to you and your dad for that.  Did you play at the weekend?  If so I hope it went well.
Have you or your mum asked strongly to see a psychologist if you want to see one?
You’re doing so much yourself to try to feel better with your football and making your doctor’s appointments I’m sure you’re going to get there Clinging on.  Do keep on.  Will

Yeah i played and we won so was really pleased… i spoke to my manager and thanked him for giving me the chance and we are now okay and no we didnt ask like in a dtraight to the point way… but i dont want to look like im trying to get attention by asking to see one ..so just not going to bother ...i hope i do get there will ... i hate it taking over my life :(

Hey! I totally get how you feel. Im on 20mg of flioexetine myself snd it just dulls me out. I dont ever feel happy or excited or sad, i just feel dull and bored. When im alone i get depressed though because im left with all my thoughts and all i expect of my future is the worst. Dont know what to do, i think i should ditch my medication. Think its making things worse.

Excellent news re your win Clinging on!  How you doing? Will

HI
you have to ask yourself, how did you feel before you started taking the medication, is it worse than you feel now or no different.
Maybe you should go back to your doctors and see if there are some other medication you can try.
Or even visit your local herbal shop which can give you a tonic or something to give you the energy you require, to either top up your medication or replace it (if you are thinking of replacing it, always ask your doctor first).  There are alot of doctors now who believe in herbal therapies.
Failing that how about a spa day or a pick me up beauty therapy treatment.
Or a good old fashioned night out with friends.
Or a good walk in a local park, lots of fresh air, with a loved one - take a flask of coffee and a good book and sit by a tree.
Dont give up please, because there is a life out there just waiting for you to grab it with both hands.
Sending you lots of love and energy
Love Greenlady