I picked this up in the science museum ’ If a single mind can change science, imagine the difference we can make together’ Xx I love talking to all my friends on here Xxthank you Xxx

My friend said to me her husband has a metaphor he says when your driving you mostly look forward, its ok to look in the rear view mirror now and then, yet if you look in it too long you crash. Keep looking to the road ahead and only have a peek now and then in the rear view. I really loved that metaphor Xx

Hope you have a great weekend xxhug xx Chloe

Hi Chloe - what a glorious day it is here and no volcanic ash in sight ! How ironic that Mother Nature has managed to do what Al Quaeda and the combined forces of terrorism couldn’t ! Ha Ha ! Some Icelandic chap on the news tis morning said that the last time this volcano errupted in the 1800s it went on for 3 years !!!
Glad you had a lovely day out in London yesterday. I love London too - I lived there for a short time in the late 80’s and whilst I wouldn’t want to live there I do love going there for the day. In fact I am going there for a work thing in a couple of weeks. It only lasts half a day so hopefully I can have a mooch around in the afternoon.
I love your metaphors - infact I think we should all get together and write a compendium of them and publish it with proceeds to Mental Health Charities.. Your one about bacteria reminded me of one I made up myself. A lonely little fish lives in an aquarium with other fish who are mean to him and shun him.” I know how I can get my own back and make them take notice of me” thinks the little fish. ” I will pooh and pooh and pooh and make their lives miserable”. And so he does and over a period of time the aquarium gets muckier and filthy. Eventually all the fish die including the lonely little one. The point of this is that we all share our environment - even the the meanies - and you don’t improve things by making life intolerable for everyone.
The moto cross event sounds exciting - great weather for it. Have fun.
Jxxxxxx

Jamie Xxx I love your story you should write childrens stories ha ha ha your funny they do love to add a lessonxxx the weather here is great Xxx when I worked with the navy one of the officers said he wanted to write all my saying down but some of them are very rude !!! My best friend had an affair with him and she grew really really weak and sad and if I could have taken on some of her pain I would have to share her load, I did love her very much Xxx she was so in love with him Xxx I was one of the boys, I wouldn’t go out with anybody just had a good laugh, a coward !!!  I think of her when you talk Xx Xx The meanies were cruel to her too Xx One of my friends was a hypnotherapist in London Harley street and wanted me to share the business with him yet I was too committed with my daughter. I would have gone up there a couple of days a week. Oh I love the shops and all the noise. I put my little girl on my shoulders until she got used to the swarming and shawling that goes on. What a culture. My girlfriends had a great laugh and we ended up talking to a girl with a 3 legged dog sat on the pavement so the kids got to kiss and cuddle the dog. My friends husband is an airline pilot and she used to be one before kids so we bumped into one in London because they weren’t flying because of the dust. Plus her husband had the day off. Oh gosh I am needed XxhugXx Have a wonderful wonderful day XXx remember close your eyes and dream Xx then your never alone Xx HugXx

Sounds like you had a great day - one of the buskers here has a ferret ! Kids love it. We do things differently round here Ha Ha ! xxx I think you could have a great career in something like hypnotherapy or in any of the caring professions - it’s what you were born to do.
Whisper it quielty but one of my favourite films is the cartoon “Finding Nemo” !! I love it and I bet your daughter has it on dvd.
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I love finding Nemo Xxx I so love that film Xxx I cried xx I believe I was born to care Xx I care and people think I’m nuts bonkers crazy Xx my sister said the problem is with me people think where’s the catch ? I think I used to care to feel loved back, then I realised the only person that can make me happy is me, now I just love to care because it makes me feel great thats all I need back, that I am serving my purpose on this planet XX I do worry when people are sad like you and Paul I lie awake needing to fix it Xx A friends husband used to be an alcoholic and homeless he said the best way for me to serve my purpose driven life is to be kind and caring and look out for eachother. He has no need for money just looking out for the next person he can help no hidden agenda. I thought perhaps I am as mad as my friends husband and that made me happy Xx its in all of us its in you, me, Paul, Helen, Brencoot, the coke advert ha ha and when we share that loving caring warmth we put bubbles in the tank of life Xxhugxx I was in the swimming pool with my friends a couple of weeks ago and my friend said oh this is cold soup and I said yes a couple of peas would warm it up !!! Your poo story made me laugh so I had to share that with you, sorry to be crude teee heee Xx There used to lots of baskers in Portsmouth and they have all gone now, I am not sure if the police moved them on. When I started university as a mature student I trundled off with my book list and got all these really heavy books and put them in my rucksack. I then saw a homeless guy and bent down to put money in his pot, then his dog went for me so I lept back and ended up on the ground with my heavy books holding me down. I was like a tortoise with the weight of my shell stuck on my back with my arms and legs waving in the air. Luckily somebody helped me up, I was so embarrassed tee hee thought I would share that with you to make you laugh Xx I don’t see any homeless anymore only big issue sellers, perhaps the homeless are cared for, I hope so, I know my daughters school collects clothes and food for them which is in Portsmouth. Its a shame because its part of the culture to have baskers and adds to the fun of the moment.  I missed the mentalist last night my favourite programme, I just love the romance of the two police officers teee hee. Hope your day is good, great and exciting because the weathers lush Xx hug Xx Chloe

Cholexx you are really caring and sweet to me xx hug xx you are just mega x a girl with a big caring heart xx hope you are enjoying the the sun xx got running nose and sore throat xx just so boring and lonely here xx sometimes with to run away xx my life has to change xx take lots of care my best friend xx paul

Paul xxx Gosh so sorry to hear your not well Xxx yuck Xxx BIG ENORMOUS HUGxxxX In the science museum yesterday they said if you hold your nose and close you mouth and go eeeeee eeeee you can sound like a whale Xxx teee heeee Lifes a beach don’t get stranded on it sexy man Xxx you can laugh again XxhugXx its really easy Xxx do you know I would so love you to being having a whale of a Time because you deserve to be happy xx big love hugs Xx Chloe

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Paul xxx please don’t feel alone it breaks my heart to hear that xx I hate lonely its the pits I can feel how it felt it was awful XxWhen I felt lonely I went to bed to shut it all out Xxx and it was so horrid Xxx Is there any way I can help ? hug Xxx Chloe

Paul Xx what would make you happy ? A girlfriend ? A dog ? I am watching Hancock, I haven’t seen the ending yet I am not allowed to till I get back on my treadmill Xxx he is a sperhero who becomes a drunken bum because he is lonely xx He does find his woman and she’s married ???? Best see what happens !! obviously a happy ending xxx what films have you seen ? HugXx

My beautiful friend Paul xxx I am here for you always HUG Xxx

Like pebbles on a beach
Kicked around, displaced by feet
Like broken stones - all trying to get home.
Like a loser’s reach
Too slow & short to hit the peaks
So lost & alone - trying to get home.

As another piece shatters
Another little bit gets lost
And what else really matters - at such a cost?

Like a loser’s reach -
Too slow & short to hit the peaks
So lost & alone - trying to get home.

Trying to get home -
Like broken stones - all trying to get home

Dear Jamie, a drink after work on a Friday night is one form of therapy don’t you think?  Can you look on it as swapping one type of therapy for another temporarily.  You can go back to your wee drink on a Friday night therapy when you feel the CBT therapy has helped you with your other issues.  Thinking of you.  Helen

Paul Weller

I saw you today, or at least I think it was
It’s hard to say, we’ve all changed so much
Compelled to look, but I hid my face
It’s hard to trace - these feelings

Gone so soon, the time I spent with you
And like an old, old tune-keeps running through my head
I wanted to say, so many things
But my mouth went dry - and one word and I’d cry

Slender bride, your beauty shines from you
And forever more, I’ll be on your side for sure
A light in your life, that always burns for you
As time passes…so quickly

The final stage, we’ve both reached some way
As we board our trains to different stations
And the parts we play, and the things we say,
Words on the way - to discovery

Chole xx you make me smile xx I have a wish xx for a gf like you x warm x caring x happy x gentle x what more could I want x friends like you xx mega xx my life would be so happy . Chole helen jean jamie all so good friends . Its you that are a bright star xx just need x a spark to get me going xx chole you have stopped me from death xx you have always listened to me xx you have such a place in my heart xx you all done xx you are all angels xx hug xx paul

Paul Xx you are the bright spark Xx you are Xxx very deep XXXXXX I love deep Xxxxx I can’t be too deep though because then I go around the Bends and into decompressionxx HUGXX you are in my heart too I have been worried sick about you XXHUGXx Hang on to that umbilical of life and the pain of the bends goes as you surface slowly Xx Oh you make me feel so wonderful because your so kind to me, friends forever Xxx you save me too if only you knew Xxx You have us all in your life now Xxx You’ll have me Harpic (around the bend) on at you teeee heee Xx Have you watched any movies lately Xx my verve still hasn’t arrived Xxx boo hoo X I can move now after my legs bums and tums ouch, it took a week Xx do you know it slowed me up so much I couldn’t do my 2 hours a day walk so I might not do it next week so I can get on with my swimming and treadmill, I need to watch the rest of hancock on my treadmill. It was a pain in the legs bums and tums Xx Hey its our birthday soon Xx we can grow old together and I’ll vet your lovers Xxx Hows your cold Xx have you taken something for it nag nag nag xx Wrap up cosey and warm Xxx HUG XXX YOUR MY ANGEL xxX I put pebbles on the beach on the post for you Xxx that was my song when I was alone Xx I don’t know how you feel feel, Yet I have been there, was there and I am here for you now Xx hugXx x X loving my friend Paul x hugs XX ChloeXx