Jamie xxx you can have that and its so easy go and get it start dating women XxxhugXxx nobody is going to knock your door and ask you out. You have to go on a hunt ....you have to go looking without looking XxhugXx girls can’t ask men out Xxx I joined clubs, night school, university, travelling, I always meet people travelling only around england mind xX You’ve got it in you ....you are trained as a sex warrior get out there and fight for your right to partttttty Xxx there are so many women out there that need to be hunted down and enslaved ops did I say that ha ha xx HugXx Mentalist is on, hey its the only time I watch telly unless I power walk Xx XXhe he speak later xxhugXx

I am watching Ashes to Ashes and they just played your song Golden Brown by the Stranglers AND Reward by The Teardrop Explodes which is the best ever 3 min pop song ! Jxxx

oh wow yes tear drop explodes Xxx wow Xxx ummmm golden brown Xxx I watched the mentalist Xx why because I wish I could be as clever as him ??? what am I like ha ha Xx nobody can read minds and guess like he does !!! You know even when I have had a go at guessing I have got it sooooooooooo wrong. Even thought I had evidence and still got it wrong Xxx perhaps people like him can be trained like bogus clairvoyants and taro card readers who take money off people and make it by body language are those people for real ?  Xxx may you be happy may you be rich may you never marry a nasty old witch xx I hope your having a nice day Xxx we are off to buy more hens the goats let the hens out and they have run off and never came back. Somebody probably has 2 more hens in their coop. The goats are very very clever like dogs we had to goat proof the chicken house because they keep getting in their house and bringing the ceiling down. Your mushie mushie feeling goes XxhugXx it does Xxx because my mushie mushie feelings go Xx I moved on and left the pain behind, I even moved town, I am not suggesting you do that. Years ago about 17 years ago when I got hurt I went to a taro card reader, it was a lad who needed money for drugs and he sat there and said look I can’t read your taro cards !!! I thought what ? he said yet I can give you some advice change everything in your life change move and if you can’t move redecorate your flat. I thought about what he said and I started to find me again, my ex reamerged and I felt different I took myself out of the painful memories I changed me Xxx He just thought wow when he saw my flat the new me and he wanted some of me again and I thought NO! He called me stubborn and all sorts, 10 years he still contacted me, the night before he married his new wife he rang me twice and I felt blessed I really felt blessed with that love, yet I still never would go back. I never trusted him again because he hurt me so much and I would never had gone back. Stubborn old taurean Xxx

Jamie Xxx what are you up to today ? Xx I hope your thinking of joining a club xxx hugXxx there are hundreds and hundreds of friends out there xxx My friends join dating angencies ones married, ones living with her partner and the 3rd well she’s just in love Xxxx At university they call it the Ali Mac Beal Syndrome, top of ladder nice place yet lonely. It gets like a pyramid and people at the top get thin on the ground, so they use the new age of computerisation our new culture…. no more dance halls…the world has changed teee heee XXx you gotta get out there and meet all those gorgeous people..todays fate is the computer ...new life and hopefully L might feel left behind and need to catch up. Big yellow cab taking you away into the sunset perhaps with your better model Xx who knows what the big man has in store for you yet it wont be horrid only nice things happen to nice people Xxx let go Xxx hugXxx let go and watch yourself soar into the sky a new you xx they use computers now to fly gets them there quicker Xxxbig hugs of worry Xxha ha hope your ok XxChloe Xx

Pesky Goats eh ! They sound very naughty. Ah yes join a club and all my problems disappear ! I have heard that so many times. Not being mean to you - it’s just if anyone else says that to me I will scream….... !!! Ha Ha ! I think sometimes the best thing I can do is lose the “depressed” label and keep it all to myself so people will never know. Do I need meds, CBT or do I just need to be normal ? Anyway I am going to get out in the sun today. Hope you got your hens happily ensconced in their new homes - do you eat the eggs ? Nothing better than fresh farm eggs yum ! I always have a big breakfast on Sat mornings bacon eggs mushrooms etc - lovely.
Have a lovely weekend.
Jxxxx

Jamie xxx joining a club didn’t help my pain xx it eased it xxhug xxx Just been to get the chickens and there were hundreds they all ran to the fence choose me choose me Xx my dad used to be like you after my mum left then my auntie or him advertised him in a dating agency. The phone didn’t stop ringing !!!! oh it was so awful all these gorgeous woman asking me about my dad when I answered the phone. My dad stood in the hallway tell her I am not in ok ...and I am talking to this desparate woman who

” Today is whatever I want it to mean” Beth Orton - Central Reservation.  My old favourite songs take on new meaning… Ha Ha !
Jxxxxxx

I got interrupted early xx my dad had loads of women after him like the chickens choose me choose me and they were all gorgeous birds Xx I was listening to my right said fred and you remind me of the swan song , swans only love once Xxx I remember once seeing a magpie beside the road and he was looking down at his dead partner, I have never had so much pity for a magpie it was heart wrenching….or perhaps it was a she and she wanted to eat him. Thats more like it. Sorry about my fix its earlier I broke one of my golden rules no fix its no advice just listen, assuming is the mother of all mess ups Xx Sorry mate xxhugXx Chloe

I was thinking this morning the people that make me feel I am not good enough aren’t good enough for me and the people I feel I am good enough for, I’m not good enough for them. The loving kind friend who I don’t have the time to text back because I am too busy impressing somebody who makes me feel insecure, I am not good enough to be the friend to the kind soul who comes second. The friend who makes me feel inferior is not good enough to be my friend. People are designed to make eachother feel good and great inside and if I am not great enough to the people who make me feel great I’m not a great person I guess Xxx The special people whoever they are and whatever they look like should come first wether they are rich poor fat thin should come first in my world xxx I am not worthy Xx

Jamie Xx I guess I was thinking of the rejection syndrome the people who accept and love me for whom I am Xxx I should love them more give them my time love and patience Xx and the ones which are cruel are not worth bothering about Xx I think depressed people are really cool Xxx don’t you dare become a meanie or a berlin wallie barrier boy pretender ha ha Xxx you so gorgeous the way you are Xxx sorry I tried to fix it hugXXX Chloe

Beth Orton - Central Reservation.
Running down a central reservation in last nights red dress,
And I can still smell you on my fingers and taste you on my breath;
Stepping through brilliant shades,
All the color you bring,
This time, this time, this time,
Is fine just as it is.

Today is whatever I want it to mean,
Today is whatever I want it to mean.
Is this where memories are made,
Well, dreams do come true.

Everything I ever took for granted,
I want to see it through.

I step through every shade,
Any color you bring,
Cause this time, this time, this time,
Is fine just as it is.

Today is whatever I want it to mean,
Today is whatever I want it to mean.

It’s like living in the middle of the ocean,
With no future, no past,
And everything that’s good right now,
Well, I don’t wish for it to last.

I’ll step through brilliant shades,
Every color you bring,
Cause this time, this time, this time,
Is fine just as it is.

And today is whatever I want it to mean,
Today is whatever I want it to mean,
Today, today, is whatever I want it to mean,
Today is whatever I want it to mean.

Jamie you and Paul are teaching me soooooooooooo much XX THANK YOU Xxx what a gorgeous song xx

Jamie Xx my fortune cookie on AOL read “Love overcomes all obstacles.” who knows what the future has in store I did the fortune cookie again and it said ‘‘giving makes you happy’’  Xxx I watched Beth Orson on U Tube wow it was excellent, I loved the trailer to her song awesome Xx I hope your having a great weekend Xxx bit worried I pissed you off Xxx forgive me XxhugXx your dog is moulting hairs all over my house teeeee heeee xxxhugxx perhaps all the facts and logic are wrong Xx

AHHHHHHHH xxx I just did the fortune cookie !!!!!!!

“Give love room to breathe.”

spookie stuff man !!!!!!

Perhaps you should listen to your heart XXXxxx
My stereo turned itself on this morning made me jump !!!

Lyrics to A Modern Midnight Conversation :
Listen to your heart
Don’t run away

Listen to your heat
Don’t run away

Take his hand
sHe wants you, too

Listen to your heart
Don’t run away

Listen to your heat
Don’t run away

Listen to your heart
Don’t run away

Listen to your heart

How are you to know what the future has in store my friend perhaps its meant to be to make it more sincere XxhugXx

Jamie xx I have found the cruelest people have loved me the most xxx life has a way of revealing a number of amazing things to me Xxx One of my bosses at work used to bully me so much I shook…oh he was horrid I was terrified of him. Actually at one time the lads got together to form a pirate posse against the cruel boss in honour of me, which made him worst !! Xxxx bless them… years later I received a LOVE letter from the boss that caused me so much upset….I was so full of shock and horror. I forgave him in my heart, the letter gave me peace. I rejected him which was really sad, because he did really scare me, not the best way to woe somebody. I still have it ha ha one of my life lessons teeee heeee. I never told a soul, only now 18 years later. I just thought of that today xxx I thought you can never tell what somebody is thinking or feeling XxxChloe