“Don’t Give Up” by Peter Gabriel with KaTe Bush

In this proud land we grew up strong
We were wanted all along
I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail

No fight left or so it seems
I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
I’ve changed my face, I’ve changed my name
But no-one wants you when you lose

Don’t give up
‘cos you have friends
Don’t give up
You’re not beaten yet
Don’t give up
I know you can make it good

Though I saw it all around
Never thought that I could be affected
Thought that we’d be last to go
It is so strange the way things turn

Drove the night toward my home
The place that I was born, on the lakeside
As daylight broke, I saw the earth
The trees had burned down to the ground

Don’t give up
You still have us
Don’t give up
We don’t need much of anything
Don’t give up
‘cause somewhere there’s a place
Where we belong
Rest your head
You worry too much
It’s going to be alright
When times get rough
You can fall back on us
Don’t give up
Please don’t give up

Got to walk out of here
I can’t take any more
Going to stand on that bridge
Keep my eyes down below
Whatever may come
And whatever may go
That river’s flowing
That river’s flowing

Moved on to another town
Tried hard to settle down
For every job, so many men
So many men no-one needs

Don’t give up
‘cause you have friends
Don’t give up
You’re not the only one
Don’t give up
No reason to be ashamed
Don’t give up
You still have us
Don’t give up now
We’re proud of who you are
Don’t give up
You know its never been easy
Don’t give up
‘cause I believe there’s a place
There’s a place where we belong

love you Xx hug you Xxx Chloe

Hey chuckles Xx I have never felt happier Xxx Your pain gave me strength Xx your kindness gave me Hope Xx your friendship GIVES me joy Xxx Chloe

Alicia Keys - Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart Lyrics

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Changing what you have, comes from changing who you are.

And changing who you are comes from changing what you think.

Which is why I made the latter so easy.

Hey, I think it’s Friday…
  The Universe

Helen Xxx I Love you so much Xxx

So do I Chloe - I do hope you are okay. Jxxx

Helen - I think I really upset Chloe. I was quite mean to her and now I think she hates me. I am really worried about her and I don’t know what to do…

J

Dear Jamie, Chloe is a very sensitive and clever lady.  It seems she too has been putting on a brave face for a long time in a difficult marriage for the sake of everyone else but herself. Her empathy is astounding and if you feel that you have upset her I feel sure that she’ll understand if you feel you want to explain or maybe she already knows why.  She seems to have been around a long time in every sense.  She seems so knowledgeable and worldly wide that I feel she’s almost been here before.  I know that I’ve learned a lot from her.  I also know from her posts that she cares a lot about you and you the same for her.  When we feel so secure with someone when we already have felt hurt it’s easy to misinterpret or feel hurt again and not seeing a person’s face makes things even easier to misinterpret.  You are both very special people and have helped each other and many others and me so much here, I hate to think of you both hurting and not daring to get back in touch for a misunderstanding.  I think Chloe’s way of feeling better is to help others so she’ll probably be upset if she thinks she’s upset you and I feel sure she won’t have done it on purpose.  She’s very good at hiding her own issues but admitted she has them with her husband.  I hadn’t heard her talk about that before you came here.  She obviously trusts you.  I’m sure that whatever was done was not meant.  It seems to be a sign of how close you’ve both become that you feel like you do, which is very special too if you know what I mean (not the hurting bit obviously!) I’ll send Chloe an email and see how she is.  Sending you both lots of love and best wishes, Helen

Dear Chloe, Jamie and I are somewhat worried about you and are hoping that you’re ok.  Thinking of you and hoping to hear from you.  You are such a special person Chloe and so caring.  You’ve helped so many people Chloe.  Please get in touch if you need us or just to say hello would be great.  Love and best wishes from Helen

Thank you Helen - I just want to know she’s alright. Terribly worried about her. J

This is all my fault - I am so sorry. J

I have been going through a private hell, I solely rely on people who are nice to me in my life to get by. I feel at a lost what to say, makes a change. Whatever happens is nobodys fault it is just what is, whats occurring Xx I can’t change the past yet I can strive to create a better future for myself. I feel extremely scared some days of saying and doing something wrong, yet I’ll do it, I’ll say it, I’ll think it, I’ll get it wrong…shit happens….I just feel at a loss for words Xxx Thank you Helen for your loving kindness XxxHugxxX

Chloe - I really had no idea how bad you felt. You were always the positive one but I guess you were hiding everything. That’s why your news came as such a shock. Whay can I do to help you ? How can I make you feel better. I know you are cross with me but I think the world of you and care about you very much. I was scared stiff about what may have happened. It’s time for you to rely on me - if you want to. I haven’t changed - I am still the same old me. I didn’t lie to you - I really didn’t. It’s exactly as I say it is with L. I thought you were gone forever. I am terrified of people leaving me. Really terrified of it. I told you I fall in love too easily ! Please talk to me if you can - I miss you.

J xxxHugxxxSorryxxxxHugxxxxx

Ps - think I still have some of my cookies round here somewhere ! Oh and there’s loads of Songs of the day I haven’t bored you with yet.

You haven’t done or said anything wrong. You have been heroic and made a huge decision in your life. I love you. Jxxxx

Jamie xx I am ok just worried what ever I might say would be wrongx sorry matexx….I have racked my brains what to say to you ..I really have..I am not cross. I just worry I might upset you :0( Xxx I am very much to blame I should have not been so gushie ...its my fault and could then again it could be nobodys fault. Its just what is, what happened whats occurred. Does it matter nar Xx Just forget the bad stuff and remember the good. I have learnt a very valuable lesson…without you I wouldn’t have learnt it. I wont flirt with men on here again Xx no more I love yous unless your gay or female Xx I crossed the boundary…I didn’t feel right about it at the time. Its a very precious word Xx and I am very much in love with somebody else Xx god bless you and may your prayers be answered Xx good friend good night Xx Chloe

Thing is I bimble on in life not giving a care xx then one day it justs hits me ...I am not happy as this square peg in a round hole… I just have this enlightenment ...I never know I am hiding something…. or putting on a brave face..I just felt miserable and never realised why ? Then revelations appear out of the blue and I realise why I am not happy. When I pinpoint what it is ...I then can do something about it Xxx I never realised how unhappy I was until I found happiness and found the contrast. I never knowingly hid anything…..is it not a crime to have secrets ? How must I be able to keep others secrets if I have no secrets of my own to trade and reassure others. What has happened to me has taken a long time coming…yet I have a small daughter who adores her daddy to consider, she is my world and yet I can not give her the world when I am grumpy sad mummy being snappy and nasty to her in my sorrow. Now she has a jolly mummy Xxx A very very happy mummy Xxx who has broken all the rules and broken free of her chains which were loose all along Xx A happy jolly mummy Xx my husband and I both feel relieved we have decided to part because he hated my sadness too Xx good night and good luck finding happiness Xxx Chloe