I don’t know what to do I’m 29 a mum of 5 my husband works away all week and I have no family near by. I was a victim of abuse when I was a child and I have been on and off anti-depressants since I was 14.
This articular bout started when I had my 4th child 2 years ago then I had my 5th 11 months later. I’ve been up and down but the past 4 months have been terrible and i’ve begged my husband to help either by having the children while I go to see the doctor about it or better still to come with me but every appointment I’ve made he’s either forgot about or had something else on.
It all came to a head today I was supposed to be going to a music festival where he was working for the weekend which is about 3 hours drive away. I wasn’t expecting to go till his mother finally agreed to baby sit yesterday morning. After being up all night with my son I finally managed to get 2 hours sleep and there was just too much to do in a short space of time to do everything I needed to do so I rang my husband and explained I wouldn’t be able to come because there was just too much for me to do, I’m not coping as it is and i’ve literally been begging him to help. So it turns into an argument I’m literally on the verge of a breakdown I tell him how i’m feeling and all he can say is I’m crying for help and i’m a psycho. This went on from 3pm till now constant phone calls one minute I think he’s being nice and tell him I can’t do this on my own anymore and I need him to be here and he just shouts and tells me to stop playing games.
I don’t know what to do the last call ended in him telling me it’s over and he’s done with me. I don’t know what to do I’m on the verge of doing something stupid. The only reason I live where I do is because of him and without him I literally have no-one my mum lives 9 hours drive away. I have no money for petrol and when I asked for some so I could go up there for a few days he refused.

Hello beautiful lovely gorgeous YOU Xx gosh you’ve been through the mill Xx that seems really horrid rotten and mean what has happened to you Xx I have had a gut full of mean people in my day and felt close to suicide and overwhelmed with really self distructing thoughts because people have been really mean Xx I have been out with horrid nasty mean men and I count my blessings now they have gone and they are well into my past. I have found there are some really lovely kind generous people out there and they have turned my life around with their positive kindness and encouragement. I look out the window and watch the neighbours husbands washing the cars taking the kids out to give the wife a break and helping with the chores and I get envious. When I was a kid all my dads family (my nan was one of 19 ) lived in the same street or the next one nobody was sure which house anybody lived in or whose house anybody was in when we called around. Should one of my aunts get ill the aunts all rallied around and looked after eachother. When I went to uni and studied psychology the tutors for health psychology mentioned the greatest healer was social support and yes us humans do need eachother and we do need help. I found when I did get help after the birth of my daughter I felt normal again and being woken by a baby at night is equivalent to Japanese torture ....torture ...murder ..!! Can I send you a MASSIVE MASSIVE HUG Xx YOU ARE WONDERFUL XXX AMAZING XXXX FANTASTIC XXXX wow I felt that way with only one child. Sad thing is some life in the past old fashion ways like their mums yet without social support its hard to cope Xxxhug hug hug hug hug hug Xxx

As Trisha says success is the best revenge ....YOUR SOOOOOOOOOO STRONG XXx he is the weak one who ran away XX

Go girl Xxx you are strong ....BE STRONG XXX

You gave birth 5 times XXXXX

You can look after 5 children on your own Xxx

You survive without sleep Xxx

Without food Xxx

ops forgot 6 kids I forgot to include him !!!

ever considered joining the SAS Xx because you sooooooo SPECIAL Xxx

SPECIAL AND SEXY Xx

I know your sexy because you’ve got 5 kids to prove it Xx

I am a woman Xx

(Helen Reddy and Ray Burton)
I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an’ pretend
‘Cause I’ve heard it all before
And I’ve been down there on the floor
No one’s ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
‘Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
‘Cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin’ arms across the land
But I’m still an embryo
With a long, long way to go
Until I make my brother understand

Oh, yes, I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman

Oh, I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong

I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
I am woman

You’ll never be lonely Xx you have 5 little people who adore you Xx

my guess : He just said it in anger Xx he’ll be ok with you when he calms down your the mother of his children Xx

yes you are a saint Xx