hi there, don’t know if anyone will find this…might be babbling on to myself. I found this site in a magazine and thought i would have a look.its very interesting to see that all the things that are tumbling around in my head are not unique to me !!! What arelief THAT is. what am I hoping to achieve from this ? a little bit of understanding from like-minded peole and to be able to offer support to others when I feel strong too. its a dark and gloomy morning outside and its really not that much better inside.Hope you are all well out there !
take care,

Hello Katybear,

Welcome to the Forum, Thank you with your kind words. We all try and offer support, kindness, friendship and compassion.

You have dark gloomy morning , I have windy seaside outside lol get your kites out.

I hope you are feeling alright

Take care

Paul

Hello Katybear, welcome to the site.  I’m glad you found us.  I do hope the dark and gloomy inside can be somewhat comforted by the amazing people and support we have on this site.  I’m afraid I don’t think anyone can do much about the gloomy outside but I have heard that starting in June we are in for a fantastic summmer!  As Paul says I do hope that you are feeling alright.  We look forward to hearing more from you if you feel like it.  Best wishes, Helen

Are you there Katybear

Night to all my friends

Paul

Good Morning Katybear,

Welcome to the site.

I hope you will find the support and advice you will receive from the people on here as big a help as I have.

Karma

Karma

How are you today? What happened yest? Will be singing at 10 la la la

I hope you are starting to feel a little better

Paul

Hi Paul,

I had a counselling session yesterday and came out feeling really good thinking I might finally be on the mend.

Then my my mobile phone arrived - my first smart phone - and I couldn’t work out how to use it.  It made me feel so stupid it caused me to have a bit of wobble.

Even relatively simple things seem overwhelmingly complicated at the moment - looks like I’ve still got a long way to go:(

Hi Karma,

Moblie phones lol I have tried touch screens not for me. I do need a new one at moment because my sony is getting a bit worn and buttons getting stiff.

I am glad the counselling is going well my friend. If only in my area there could be improvment.

Singing was brilliant , which I enjoy .

thank you for all your kind comments yesterday . don’t know where that “low” came from….I hate it when everything is going well and then it sneaks up on you -bah ! anyway, as they say today is a different day and after smiling brightly at everyone and waving the kids off to school I sat down in the silence…...another bad day ...until my darling sister phoned out of the blue. an hour and a half later and things looked a lot better. Did I tell her I was feeling blue ? Nope like everyone else I put a cheery smile on and chatted away as tho nothing was wrong. But thats what we do isn’t it ?

however after that I thought what am I doing ? got my paints out and spent the rest of the morning drawing and painting….my way of salving the soul. so , todays a good day now, the sun is shining , its howling a gale and whatever it is that sneaked up on me yesterday is slowly but surely going away…ha til the next time !!! its a case of being ready for it , isn’t it ? If I knew what the triggers were I could be armed and waiting ready for the fight !  Its all just a game this I think !  Right ?
I hope you are all having a better day too
kate.

hi Karma, forget the mobile phone thing…...I have tried as many new ones and stick to my apparently really “uncool” one as it is the only one I can work !!! so what ! my daughter got an ipod which I cant work and she just laughs at me -even my 8 year old can work it…put it away til you are having a better day and feel strong enough to decipher the instructions….on my bad days I could hardly tell you my name never mind how to work a phone !
Good luck -keep trying- you’ll work it out
Kate.

Hi Kate,

I’m so pleased you were able to talk to your sister and she was able to make you feel better.

Obviously you know your sister much better than I do, and I can only speak from my own experience, but I have told a few people how I’ve been feeling and have been astonished to find out:

- how many other people have had problems like this at some stage.
- how much support I have received.

I’ve also found that the introduction and chapter 1 of “Depressive Illness - the curse of the strong” provide a great explanation of both how depression feels, the type of person who is most likely to suffer, and what causes it. The chapters are also very short and therefore quick to read. Should you feel the need to open up to someone (and only you can decide if you should) It might help if you let them read these first few pages if you can hold of a copy. I’ve recommended this book on here before and I think its worth the purchase price just for the first chapter alone.

Helen was going to try and get hold of a copy, but I don’t know if she has been able to as yet. There are other books recommended on this site and it would be interesting to know how Helen and the other experts think of how it compares to the other books.

Regarding my phone: It turns out my mobile network provider hadn’t activated my new sim card and thats why nothing was working properly. My counsellor would probably say its yet another example of me blaming myself inappropriately. Next time I’ll try and follow your advice and try and find an 8 year old to sort my life out

Hope you have a fantastic day,

Karma

karma,
thanks for the advice, will have a look for the book -sounds v. interesting ! Isn’t it amazing how the slightest , often silliest thing can set you back (thinking of your phone ) but at the time it is so easy to add it to the list of “all the things I can’t do “....this is a learning curve sure enough. I have had a good day thanks and I hope that you have too !
take care,
Kate