everything is a mess. no more figtht left. hate this. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!!!! harming myself because its what i deserve. can’t even be bothered to write any more

Glynis, call the Samaritans, take some deep breaths and step back from the pain you’re feeling.  You don’t deserve this.  It’s too much to do this on your own.  You don’t deserve to and don’t have to.  Reach out to someone.  Can you go outside and lie down and absorb some sunshine and imagine yourself far away from what’s worrying you and stressing you.
Distract yourself with something.  Do you watch the period drama Downtown Abbey?  It’s on BBC tonight.
Do you like listening to the radio?  It works for me to listen to the radio.  Radio 4 is good for talking to you.
Glynis, stop punishing yourself.  You’re forcing the pain inwards rather than keeping it out and letting it out.  Hang on Glynis.  This pain will pass.  Everything passes. Good passes too.  This will change.  Thinking of you.  Helen

Dear Glynis,

I’ve just read your post.

Please, please, please don’t ever give up.

As I’m sure you recall from a little while ago, I too was feeling completely hopeless and couldn’t see an end to how I was feeling - I really managed to covince myself that feeling absolutely awful all day every day was all I had to look forward to for the rest of my life.

However, I am now well on the way to recovery and I am not the only one - Helen has recovered as have Will, Gemma and Katybear - please read their posts. All of us know how desperate life can seem and yet we now know things can get better with time.

I never want to feel like that again but I’m not going to condem myself for doing so and you shouldn’t either. Depression is most definately not a sign of weakness. It may seem hopeless now, but please belive me when I say it is possible to recover - it really is.

If you haven’t already, may I suggest you read “Shoot the damn dog” by Sally Brampton. Its not a self-help book but rather a memoir of her journey through depression - it may help renew your faith that one day you will feel better.

You have my deepest sympathy and understanding for how you are feeling and I wish truely wish there was something more I could do to help.

Please try and remember you are not the only person that is, or has, felt this way. All your freinds on the site have you in our thoughts and are backing you all the way to beat this horrible illness.

Wishing you all the very, very best.

Karma

Hi Glynis, I’m fearing that no news isn’t good news.  Do let us know how you are.  We are thinking of you.  Will

hate to butt in on such a thread but I totally agree with Glynis. I thought I was free of depression after 6 good months. It is back with a vengeance and I no longer have the strength to fight it. Please do not ask me to ring thed Samaritans as I do not want to hear some unqualified, well-intentioned voice to advise me to go to my gp. If someone will come up with a one sentence, non-religious answer to what is the point in life I may be prepared to listen. Otherwise goodbye and thanks

I’m sorry I can’t come up with a one liner to tell you what life is all about and how everything is fantastic etc., but even if did, I don’t think anyone would believe me, I probably wouldn’t even believe me myself. I’d love to know the right answer to your questions, but my opinion is that I think the only thing we can do, even though it is really hard at times, is try to be as happy and as stress free as possible, appreciate what we have and try to enjoy now, and try not to think about the past and future too much. I’ve said it before, but I think we can learn a lot from animals, because they seem to have the ability to live in the present better than we do. I guess that’s where our big brains are a big disadvantage because they allow us to think too much.

I’m really sorry that I can’t give you any magic words Athelstan, I wish I could. Do you know what made you start feeling depressed again after you thought you were depression free?