So i have a few good friends that know what im going through etc… and there is 1 of them that hasn’t reeally bothered with me and im gutted and disapointed at the same time! .. we used to meet up about once every 2 weeks… and talk on facebook all the time.. and now im lucky if i even get to talk to her on facebook.. she used to ask if i wanted to meet up and tbh it all gets to much and i always back out :( ... and i know its my fault ... i feel like ive lost a friend and yet as stupid as it sounds i feel as if i have no energy to get in touch to try and make our friendship better… :( there isnt really a question here… suppose its more off a “one of those i need a hug moments” ... :\

Good morning Clinging on, I note the time of your post.  Goodness you’ve been awake at god unearthly hours haven’t you. The middle of the night can be a particularly bad time for thinking. 
Like you I found friends getting farther and farther away when I was very low with depression.  Whilst I probably had pushed them away in the first instance as I actually didn’t feel able to cope with the pressure of meeting, I was really upset that I thought our friendship was over.  When I was feeling better a couple of years later (I’m not saying it will take this long for this to happen for you) I got back in touch and they said that they were leaving me be to get on with recovering and thought that rather than pestering figured that I’d be in touch when I felt able to pick up the friendship which is what I’d done.  They were right to do that.  On the other hand friends can find it difficult to know what to do for the best when a friend is ill. Don’t presume it’s over.  It may be on hold.  The friendship can always be there but not as active as you’d like.  The good thing is that when you see a good friend after a long time you can pick up where you left off and feel like you’ve never been apart.  Don’t make it another worry.  You’ve got enough of those.  Your friend wouldn’t want it to be another worry.  I used to send cards to friends which made me feel I was staying in touch and it was manageable.  You take care.  Helen

... sending you a cyber hug! Helen