When I get depressed I get a buzz buying stuff on ebay. I get such a high and I feel really great when I win something. I have bought so much my postman has started to make comments about the amount of post I receive. Can anybody help ?

I tell myself I love myself . I tell myself I am enough and that I do not need to buy things to cheer me up. I got this idea from Marisa Peer’s book. Recently I have just started to invest more in me than material stuff and objects to make me happy. It’s a day to day slog sometimes I feel I am going nutty because I just love to shop, so i distract myself. I wish money grew on trees because I love the thrill it gives me to go and buy lots of stuff. I have started to go swimming to make me feel great and keep me out the shops and it works.Mind you I have fallen off the wagon a couple of times but better the woman that made an effort than the one that never made an effort at all. When I get really low I run up and down the stairs and jump about to really happy music to detract the urges. Could you start a hobby, is there something that you could do instead ?