You need to sweep the picture clean,
and start to dream another dream,
and end this this foggy yesterday that
still reminds you…
All the lies you’ve had to swallow,
just to face the World tomorrow…

Hello Chole

How are you my friend.  Work what a joke!!! this country is in ruin….....thank you camron, clown, idot

My friend hugs to you x

Helen,
Thank you for your message. How are you today? Is it still cold at your end?

Yeah, I was pretty upset about what my mum said, so I just left and tried not let that get to me. My mum rang me the next day, and apologized for what she said. It was very BIG of her as she doesn’t usually do that. There is a strong connection between mother and daughter, I think. I am learning to be more forgiven. After all, like you said that we can’t stop the process of getting older. Your dad souds like a funny guy.

It is very hot here at the moment. Feels like the heat wave everywhere you go. A friend of mine is visiting from London, and she is loving the heat and the beach. Somehow, I often imagine myself being somewhere a bit cooler especailly in this heat.

Life goes on, and I keep myself busy with swim, good food and searching for work. I try to remind myself that it will happen when the time’s right. Easy said than be done, I guess, but I try.

Still sending you warm heat and energy to keep you Warm, Helen!

Hope

Well done, Chloe for being so cheerful and positive. YOU ARE DOING IT, AND I AM SO PLEASED FOR YOU:-) You go, girl!!!

Hope

Hi Paul,
You are a beautiful amazing person. I wish you find the job that you like. I also wish you be kind to yourself. We are in the journey together. You can do it, I can do it, and WE CAN DO IT TOGETHER!!! Love the music, and keep on singing.

Thank you for your support and encouragement!

Hope

It wasn’t ever supposed to hurt you. You weren’t ever supposed to cry. And I never dreamed you’d sometimes feel so helpless.

Yet, as things have turned out, lots of folks have trouble getting out of bed on cold, dark mornings.

Anyhow,  should there also be the occasional pain, tear, or touch of sadness beyond that, please realize these were anticipated, bargained for, and even sought after. As each would illuminate your resiliency, prove your strength, and help you blast through every flimsy notion that would otherwise keep you from seeing that even now I hold you in the palm of my hand and that all things are possible.

Such a deal,
  The Universe

couldn’t you just turn on all the lights and pretend the sun is already up? 

Mike Dooley

I got this mail today from TUT from the universe and I loved it….I really did ...and it is what I believe because anything that has happened to me has made me stronger…the only time I get weak is when I take a dip in the pity pool. Yet it’s my choice !!! I choose to be happy…X Chloe

Hello
A wonderful beautiful friend of mine tried to take her life yesterday she is in hospital now. She left her children with me and was planning how she would execute the act without the children in the house. Now I look back and feel so very touched she chose me because she trusted me with her baby and son. I took the children fir her and got suspicious so I ran to the doctors who told me to go back and take away any pills from her. I was too late she had taken them after I left.  She is ok now . My friend and I called an ambulance. I wasn’t able to come on and speak to you sorry My friend is much better and this is now the start of her journey to recovery. It was nobodys fault it was just was is…and hopefully now her life is about to get lovelier. Her pain becoming her gain and she’ll grow stronger…I pray she grows stronger and happier ...I know it’ll take time yet I see the light at the end of her tunnel I hope she can. I shall stand there and wave the lantern night after night until she sees her way clearer ...run to the sun…back to that cool sexy chick that made us all laugh again bless X

How are you today my friend

How is your friend? I was worried when I heard this. Pls send my wishes to her pls.

Hope the kids are alright

Hugs Paul x

Hope

How are you my friend? It fills me with happiness, that I have brilliant friends from Depression is fun.

If I had a wish, we would all meet face to face for tea and coffee.  I could never wish mre than the friends I have here, with support friendship, belief.

It’s always so good to hear from you.

Paul

Oh my dear Chloe, what a terrible place your friend has been to.  I know that for many people having been so low and not expecting to come out of it can make them see and be shocked by the seriousness of their situation and it can be the start of their recovery.  My psychiatrist did a paper on it in Edinburgh of an almost epiphany like experience. 
With amazing support around her like her family and friends like you she is in good hands.  Unfortunately though it is up to her to make the change when she feels ready and strong enough but with the support around her and two beautiful children she’s got a lot worth recovering for and I hope she is able to see that again very soon. 
But please make sure that you don’t drain yourself Chloe by offering more support than you have to give particularly given all you have going on in your life at the moment.  We are here for you too Chloe as well as you always being here for us and others.  My hearfelt wishes go out to your friend and her family and children.  Thinking of you Chloe. Best, Helen

How are you dear Paul?  You always seem to care for everyone else and not look after yourself or talk about yourself other than briefly.  I do hope that you’ve had a good day today.  I’m also wishing that a fabulous job comes your way very very soon. 
I agree with Chloe, please stop listenting to depressing music all the time.  Try some happy music and see how it makes you feel.  It may lift you.  It may irritate you!  You can always go back to your other music if you find you don’t like the uplifting lyrics and rhythm. 
Talking of music, how’s the singing going?
Thinking of you and sending you lots of good wishes.  Helen

O Chloe, how are you today? How is your friend? So sorry to hear about your friend. Hope she is doing ok. You are such a special person, and your friend is very lucky of having you as a support! Please look after yourself as well. Love you and sending you lots of hugs and kisses, sis Chloe. I am here for you…

Hope

Hi Paul,
Lovely to hear from you. Your message cheers me up.
How are you today?
I went to see my psychologist today, and we talked about quite a few things. Laterly I have been having nasty self defeating thoughts & critisim towards myself, you know, the bad talks in my head, and I really really HATE them. Bad thoughts made me feel bad, worse and the worst, and hence not wanting to go on and giving up. The psychologist suggested me to write down the things that can lift my mood and put somewhere I can see easily. That way,when I am in the “self defeating” mood, I have some help there to lift myself a little bit. I thought the suggestion is quite helpful. Thought to share it with you here, hope you don’t mind. I think that I will start putting a “lifting myself up kit” as the doctor suggested. I want to enjoy life, and live fully again. I know that I can do it with time, patience and determination.

It’s nearly the weekend. Any plans? What sort of work are you looking for, Paul?

Thank you for your support. Take it easy, and have a good day!

Hope

Hello my friend is really well and starting to get help and some understanding of what she was going through…A quiet girl that doesn’t like to ask for help and worried whatever help she might get might sabotage her success in the future and she be labelled in whatever her future career has to offer. She has heard people be judged and that experience has led her to suffer in silence and not seek help. I used to worry so much about not being so perfect…spiritually I reflected on all my so called mistakes and realised alot of them were the key to my success and watching deepak chopra seven spiritual laws of success somebody agrees with me. Wayne Dyer lifts my soul because I agree with what he says and speaks about. I love the life coaches that encourage us like Marissa Peer. Why aren’t we listening to them ??? I have been reading books on how I should and should not be…do this do that for my career for my love life and they just tied me up in knots ...because I am a spritual person the books did not suite ME !! I don’t need to read 100 books I just need to read the books that make me feel good the books that enhance my well being happiness…not the books that tell me…that me myself and I have got it wrong. Life is not a judging contest of your better or should have done this that the other…my life journey was about my life and the mistakes I have made and continue to make are fine by me. Because it all led me to where I am now…my life could not be lovelier and continues to be. I am a single mum with no family no job no money and the MOST FANTASTIC FRIENDS wow am I luckiest person alive. At the bottom of my jacobs ladder I have found the loveliest kindness people in my life. Its like attending my own funeral and seeing the church packed. I have found the greatest kindness respect and love shown towards me. Solidarity support…I am soooooooooo lucky and that makes me warm inside. These friends are accepting of me and my nutty little ways and I love them all I really do..yes oh course I meant all of you too Xx I feel loved and I say ‘I love you’ and they might think I am the gush meister yet who cares…where have they all gone nowhere they are still here. My little friend needed some of that love sooooo I poured it all over her. I told some other friends and they secretly are giving her some time..she doesn’t know…see people are so busy with all their stuff its not that they didn’t care they just couldn’t see it coming. Sometimes its good to talk ask for help ..I find it very difficult ....oh do I hate rejection too ..I got that in the past and it conditioned me yet everybody is different and though I cringe inside I push myself to ask for help ha ha ... Paul hows the singing ? Chloe X