Oh no I missed Peter, I like him too, great inspiration XXx Yes I am happy to be stood next to you Kayfer you hold me up Xx with all your strength you inspire me to be a better person Xx I had a rotten headache today ...I forgot to drink water ..what am I like !!! please nag me to drink more water XXHUGXXXHUGXX good night Xx zzZZZZZz

Dear All

Many thanks for your replies and suggestions, I am going to read through them and give them a go see which works for me.

Even having the first replied posted by Helen lifted me a bit. It’s strange how one day I can be ok and then the next a complete wreck at the moment. I know I should open up more, but it’s like a leopard trying to change his spots.

Just wanted to say thank you for taking the time to post your replies.

Take care

Mike

Mike you sound so very human Xx what a beautiful realisation Xxx imperfectly perfect, decent kind and wise Xx I was thinking about you manifesting the you you would like to be. At night when you close your eyes I would like you to visualise the you you would like to be and I would like you to see this you in the distance chatting to somebody i.e you could be friendly charismatic charming confident wise attractive healthy laughing and chatting to this other person. I would like you to slowly walk up to You, walk closer and closer and then walk INTO the you you created, then I would like you to SEE through YOUR eyes the person you were talking to so you can see them opposite you and say to yourself I AM ENOUGH and smile. Please would you do this for me at night before you go to sleep XxHUGXX becoming you who you always are were gorgeous wonderful you Xxx Kind decent wise YOU XXx

I found this written by Snoopy Xx I thought it was heart warming XXX

I learned who my friends are and like you, stayed away from people who I felt were “emotional leeches”. I was always someone who helped her friends and some of them just kept taking and when I needed help they walked away or kept bothering me with their “problems” which was thoughtless at the very least and damaging at worst.  So stuff them frankly. I don’t need that and neither do you.
I’m glad your other children are beginning to understand.  It isn’t personal and deep down they do know but it is hard for them. It can’t be nice seeing their sister so low and not knowing what to do to make things better.  I have a younger brother and a much younger half sister who is only 3.  My brother sometimes forgets that I’m ill (even though he’s a medic!!! I’m his sister and not a patient so I understand when he’s been daft) but he has been so good and he rings me at the most unhelpful times just to talk!!! I love him for that and my sister in law tells him off when he is a bit thoughtless.
My little sister is such a tonic.  She knows I’m not well but is too young to understand.  She knows not to come and wake me up when I stay with her but I hear her sneaking in to take a look to see if I’m still asleep and that makes me smile.  It’s the little things that mean a lot. A hug means the world.
I’m sure things will get better. Hang on in there.
Snoopy xxx

How are you feeling today Mike ? Glad we picked you up Xxx hope we can make you smile again soon Xx

Brencoot just wanted to say LOVE what you write Xxx and Kayfer I love you too XXX you are wonderful Xxx

Hi Chloe

Many thanks for that suggestion I wil definetely give it a go.

Yesterday I met somebody who gave me a number for a hypnotherapist, who might help with the anxiety part of my problem. I wonder if anyone else has had any experiences, either good or bad.

I had a look at the website for that herbal remedy recommended on a previous posting, it was something like £26, I am looking at the right thing?

Take care all.

Mike

Hell Sahara/Mike, hows it going?

Yeah, it’s kinda true that leopards can’t change their spots, but it’s not a massive change to say what’s on your mind. I’m sure you have conversations with people about lots of things that you about in other areas of life, like sport, food, TV etc., so why not about how you are feeling/what is troubling you. No pressure though, only do it if you want to.

Mike have you looked at the web site panic away. It is brilliant, they send you free emails I found them so effective for me. Hypnotherapy might help, Actually I found a holistic approach was the best for me, I tried everything and anything to see what would work. I can only say you are going to get better. Hypnotists are excellent for installing positive belief, ego strengthening. Panic away say stop fighting the feeling and let it come. So now I let it come like a Suenarmi (ops I can’t spell it) Then it is over with. I just let it happen and the anxiety weakens and discipates whereas before fighting the anxiety made it worse for me. I also found exercise helps, I go on a treadmill for 30 minutes or step up and down on the bottom step of the stairs I got all this from the book spark by dr John Ratey and Eric Hagerman outrunning the fear and facing the fear I found it works Xx I also tap that is EFT that releases anxiety. Magnus at tapping shows you how to tap on his webpage. I shall find them for you Xx Marisa has a CD on the back of her book which installs positive belief over and over and over. You could try Byron Katie , loving what is Xx Mike you are going to get better Xx and you are going to look back and smile one day and be able to help othersxx keep smiling. Do you watch comedy Helen swears by it, we love comedy in this house we watch all the uk gold only fools and horses, brittas empire, vicar of dibley Saturate that gorgeous beautiful brain of yours in luscious positive chemicals and don’t forget to eat great food WATER and exercise Xx all boring stuff yet so effective Xx Hope you have a wonderful wonderful weekend Xx

Hi Chloe

Blimmey there is loads of homework to do there but seriously, thankyou.

I’ve just been offered a job on a 3 month trial which I guess is about as good as it gets at the moment, so I am on one of my highs at the moment, but also filled with quite a bit of fear of whats coming next, so it sounds like some of those suggestions are going to be really helpful over the next few weeks as I prove myself once again.

Actually I grabbed a whole of comedy DVD’s last week especially those containing Ronnie Barker (open all hours, porridge) the old ones are the best! so I’ve got plenty of material to keep a smile on my face.

It’s amazing how much weight I’ve lost since being made redundant 6 weeks ago. A combination of loss of appetite with doing more walking to save on petrol. I am hoping it doesn’t come back as I tend to comfort eat when under stress, so there have been some positives.

Take care and have a good weekend yourself Chloe.

Mike

Dear Mike, I wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS on your job.  That is fantastic news!  I am not surprised that you are on a high.  I also wanted to let you know that you are looking at the right thing with the Filisa. http://www.littleherbal-international.com/acatalog/Filisa.html .  One pot is 30 days supply so it works out at about 90p a day.  If you buy 3 months supply it works out at £20 per pot but I realize that you want to try it first.  Did you read the accolades on their site about how Filisa has helped people with depression ranging from suicidal to mild depression?  They are inspiring stories.  Not sure if you wanted to know about the omega supplements too.  The Vegepa omegas http://igennus-hn.com/products/vegepa/.  You can read what people say about them on their site too.  They are pharmaceutical grade so they are very good and cost £11.70 per pot normally but until the end of November there is a 20% discount if you put in the promotion code:  DEPFUN01. By the way, how are you getting on with your homework?  You do know that there’s no detention if you don’t do them all!  Have a lovely weekend.  Best, Helen

Mike Xx

http://www.youtube.com/magnustapping#p/a/u/1/6i33V2EcVlY

Hope you give it a go Xxx works for me xxx

Mike Xx

http://www.panic-away.com/?hop=beer1981

I signed up to the free emails wonderful stuff and it really helped me Xx

Hello mike Xx yes congratulations on the job Xx Lucky for you it’s only a temporary contract you could be stuck somewhere you didn’t like Xx When I fear the worst that could happen, I realise the worst CAN’T happen !!! I imagine myself homeless jobless and realise I can get help from the state. I realise the only worst thing that could happen to me is not loosing my job it’s losing my child my husband my life Xx I had a dreadful time at one place of work and the best thing that ever happen to me was leaving that job. Your a wonderful wonderful person who has shown strength and tenacity I know because you wouldn’t be on here XXHUGXX you have come through the worst this is your rebirth your not going to mess it up you are going to shine with all your character building stuff with you. You have learnt your lesson and you are stronger wiser slimmer and healthier than you have ever been. Depression is an illness not a sin your a speacial person for having insight into a dreadful illness that is nobodys fault and you have come through that Xx your amazing, now is the time to pat yourself on the back, no doubts just a new raw fresh challenge the past is the past it was only a lesson to teach you something you’ll need to know in later life to make you move forward. You are AMAZING Xx you are only going to be signing that Full time contract in 3 months if you WANT to if you LIKE them. ha ha Remember YOU ARE ENOUGH you are wonderful you are a strong amazing and a winner an achiever a developer a mover a groover Xx HUGXX if YOU don’t like the job remember !! it’s about you and your happiness that counts. An older relative said it was wonderful when she was younger if she didn’t like a job, she just left, there was so much work 40 years ago, so many jobs and no unemployment. It is ONLY our culture that has put people in this situation NOT you. Look at the X factor gosh all those wonderful kids singing yet their can only be one. Gosh I hate doing the kids musical statues at parties and asking kids to sit out, I have to have another kid do it because they don’t care. Good luck with the new job not that you’ll need it, because you know your WONDERFUL XX I hate it when I get worried and scared and people say ‘Oh you’ll be alright’ and I hate that no empathy or care, yet they are right I am always ok, I think what can go wrong the only thing that could go wrong is if I die !!! and then I won’t be around to worry about it. Fear is also False Experiece Acting Reality all those horrid things aren’t going to happen, all that anxiety I get I tell myself is excitement it feels the same as my first kiss, santa coming at christmas, meeting friends I haven’t seen in years Xx I turn my fear into the knowledge in me that it is the same as the yummy scrummy excitements too, yummy scrummy excitements that nice stuff is on it’s way Xx it maybe instincts for something good I am feeling XXHUGXX sorry about the long lecture today Mike, I hope you were good in class and didn’t fall asleep, I expect you to do your homework or you might get detention !!!! GOOD LUCK XXX go get em gorgeousXXX