Ah hope Xxx my computer gets jammed from time to time and I get in a jam of life ha ha. All I get is this little hypnotic circle going around and around on the screen as I want to scream Xx I believe I have almost finished my christmas shopping and now I need to post some kids pressies and pressies to friends that live up the north of england. My husband decided to cut his finger badly with a stanley knife yesterday and it would not stop bleeding so we had to go to the hospital and wait hours !!! and then he needed a tetanus jab which he should have had being a farmer. Gosh you look amazing in that dress wow wow wow you groovie sexy chick. Oh it sounds so christmasy, yes I have a dress, a black one. Guess I could dress it up with some bling jewellery. Oh gosh I used to wear dresses all the time, now I wear jeans sweatshirt and wellington boots ha ha. Practically everybody has their ugg boots on today,well fake ones ha ha Xx it is sooooo cold -5 C it is COLD, I had to smash the ice in the animals water bowls. My daughter went to school in a santa outfit today she looked so so cute. So adorable and she was so excited about christmas she can’t sleep. We were watching television the other day about Toronto zoo in sydney I think the zoo was called Toronto are you by the coast now. My friend showed me her grandchildren out in oz wearing summer santa outfits so cute, they live in new south wales, my other friends live in Queensland. My husband lived out in Australia for a year doing an exchange scheme with his college, he loved it and said he would always love to go back. I have been out shopping and Jean on the forum came out with a great one for the shopaholic ‘ours is not to reason why ours is but to do and buy’. Thats what I have been up to. I have been stood in queues waiting to pay and then spotting something I need to buy whilst I am stood in the queue and not able to go and get it because I would loose my spot in the queue, they wont let you back in, I would have to go to the back of the queue. It’s the culture of the British queue !!! my spanish friend used to laugh at me and say why do you appologise for nothing all the time. She said when you bump into anybody you say sorry. It wasn’t long and I heard lo siento ha ha ha she was appologising in spanish she made me laugh. She used to laugh at the queues in our shops too and at the bank. Do you queue in Australia ? Actually the queue culture can get so angry over hear psychologists came up with the idea people stand in one queue and then get called to a numbered window to save punch ups. Because people would get really angry if the queue didn’t move so fast at their window and they had joined the wrong queue and fights would break out. Well thats what I was told by the psychologists at university. We still all stand at the bar and wave money to get served in a pub. I worked in a bar when I was younger and lasted two weeks, I was the worlds worst bar maid. I served all the wrong people first and got shouted at ha ha. Oh I have missed you too XXX sorry its been so long beautiful sis xx Well I don’t know where my man has got to He has a full english in the oven going dry. I reckon finger mouse is probably slowing him down (his bandage looks like a finger puppet) xx its starting to warm up now Xx BIG HUG XX I do love you very much my beautiful smiley gorgeous sis Xx Speak to you soon and if you don’t its a mechanical fault ha ha Xxx hug xxxX

Hope I got this email today Xx
Just wanted to remind you,that sometimes success is better measured in smiles received, giggles heard, and hands held, than in dollars earned, deadlines met, and kilos shed.
Xxx That was Mike Dooley TUT today and then I thought oh gosh how did the interview go Xxx
You have had wonderful success lately BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL YOU Xxx hope the job is right for you Xxx

Hope XxJust read yesterdays TUT and thought of our PMT ha ha ha

Sometimes, it’s the ones you love the most who are the best at pushing your buttons.

Love you lots Xxx

Yeah - Chloe is back   So sorry to hear about your husband…is he feeling better now?  I am terrible with blood, hospital etc-please send my regards to him!!!  My computer has been having some truble as well.  The screen just goes black for no reason, and I had to shut it down a few times.  Don’t know what’s going on…maybe it needs a break, too? 

Yes, I know the zoo that you are talking about.  It is in Sydney, and I have visited it not long ago.  However, I feel sad to see those animals in the cage etc as they look as if they have been drugged to stay inside if you know I mean?  I prefer animals to be in their own environment, you know, be FREE

We might go sailing this weekend.  It has been a while, but I look forward to be close to the ocean, on the boat and feeling the sea breeze.  Well, I am having that specail week of the month right not, so feeling a bit agitated and tired.  Not easy to be a woman, right? 

Love your inspirational messages.  I feel better about job searching etc as I realised that I shouldn’t rush into anything.  I am still recovering and getting better.  However, I will keep looking, and something suitable will come along.  Thank you for reminding me to stay settled and be gentle with myself.  Too often, I forget and blame myself for not having the results if you know I mean?  This week, I realised that I don’t have to be winning and achieving all the time, it is good to just sit back and enjoy the summer. 

So good to hear from you again, sis.  Enjoy the festival season and please look after Chloe well, because she is NO 1!!!

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I got in I got in I got in heeeeeerrrrrrahhhhhh Xxx I haven’t been able to get onto the forum I kept typing in the web page and I got sorry no matches then AOl let me in and wouldn’t let me post my reply and said you need to log in to this forum Xx is there an enquiry address on the web I can write to say I can’t get on, does anybody else have a problem with Ao hell ? It’s snowing and it’s so beautiful Xx sadly I haven’t been able to get off of my drive to post my parcels. The dustbin men left all the bins at the top of our road because they couldn’t get up and down the slope Xx sadly I have no time to chat now because everybody this end wants me Xxx HUG HUG HUG XXX hopefully I won’t get shut out again Xx LOVE YOU lots Hope XXX be nice to my sis Hope promise to love her and cherish her for me she is very beautiful and precious love me love you love all of us Xxx hug Xxx

I am feeling really worried I have bought all the wrong stuff it felt great at the time in the shop yet now I have got it all back I am thinking will they like it ?????? It is really horrid looking at how much I have spent too, was it a waste ???? I shall tell you the day after boxing day XXx I needed to say it has been a priceless honour for me to have interacted with the most amazing wonderful people who have the most amazing wonderful lives and shared their time and lives with me Xx what a priceless gift XX THANK YOU XX

Hope xxI don’t do blood either I get pins and needles of the knees ha ha and feel a bit like I have had too much to drink. I would have loved to have been a nurse yet ended up as a lab technician, hey if I had trained as a nurse they might have let us into Australia. I have just been told my friend is going to emigrate. My husband said thats not fair they get to have 2 summers in 2010, I guess the cold is getting to him and finger mouse isn’t healing fast because it needs the fresh air and the sunshine. Pity us old limies is that the fun word for brits ???, my dad served with Australians in the 60’s and I still have a bear made of kangaroo skin that his best friend gave him he sits on the top of my wardrobe. I believe the most important fact of life is to be happy and looking on the bright side and keeping busy so my old brain doesn’t think of negative stuff. Ummm I do love the ocean breeze, I love to sit on the beach and watch the waves so relaxing. That is so sad about the animals that is really really sad, the keepers on the telly act like they love the animals very much. I would had to be in a pen. The goats jump the fences they are little cute monsters and have the glint of mischief in their eyes so cute. Synchronicity has found me the most wonderful jobs. I visited a friend in hospital who was dying of cancer and her manager was visiting her, she turned and said she’d do it, that was it, I got the job and sold gym membership it was fun and I got to be myself. Your new job is probably going to find you, that advert that jumps out at you, the friend who mentions it and in the meantime you can enjoy the sun….ummmm I would he he. I was told during the war there was an underground hospital where nobody would heal because we need sun light. Please would you send us some sun now HUG xxx not long till xmas, oh I love all the songs and my little girl is making it magical getting excited yet I still not feeling xmassy yet Xxx perhaps I need to chill and smell the holly Xxx where abouts are you now in oz am I allowed to ask, are you by the beach ? I can ask my hubbie about where you are XXXHUG XXX

umm, I wish I were near the beach right now, but no I am home at the moment.  Cleaned the back yard today and my flowers are growing beautifully.  Happy to just sit in the yard and enjoy the serenity.  It is quite amazing feeling, knowing that the tree is up and decorated, the house is clean, and the presents are wrapped.  Just like “a box per day”, we got things done gradually.  Last night, I wrapped all the presents while watching TV.  It didn’t feel like a chore anymore, just something to do while chilling in front of the TV.  Chloe, your friends and family will love the goodies you have got for them, well, if they don’t, then they probably don’t deserve to be your loved ones.  I agree with Jean, if we treat everyday as if it is X’mas, then the world would be a better place.  Did you get yourself something?  You deserve it as you have been doing so much for everyone else.  Love you lots, and it is so comforting to know that you are here to listen, chat and share.  Can’t believe X’mas is just a few days away!!! My best wishes to you and everyone else on the forum to stay well and enjoy the festival season.

Ah thank you for that Xxx it turned my negatives around to a positive and friends are getting really excited and soooo happy and thrilled I got them a present I have had so many hugs off of people who I have given presents to. I am feeling a bit of a berk now worrying ops Xx I am getting that inner glow that tingle Xxx thanks you have really helped me, sorted my head out Xx The snow has drawn everybody together here, neighbours who don’t normally chat are chatting, because the snow has slowed them up. Strangers were sharing stories with eachother in the post office. Neighbours have been giving eachother salt and sharing the best broom between them to clear the snow. I said to Jean tragedy brings out the best in people, kindness and solidarity. When there is snow or petrol strikes people talk and get together, sweet, does your culture do the same. I am loving the snow I am getting used to the cold, the hot water bottles, the furry slippers and its all snug. My presents are wrapped and some are under the tree and my husband is all smiley smiley because he has got me a surprise bless him Xx I bought a frozen turkey and I am not sure when I need to get it out of the freezer its only a little one. I can’t believe it’s only 3 days till christmas, actually do you get to have christmas before us or after us ? LOVE YOU XX HUG YOU XX oh yes I forgot to say I got myself some Barbour welly boots !!! I got my husband some too, so I have hidden them so he doesn’t see his present. I wanted to get him some mole skin RD Williams trousers yet I need to take him to Oxford Street London so he can try them on. He has put on an inch or two and he can’t get his mole skins on this year ops !! He wears blunnies for work too. You can buy them in London, he has about 3 pairs of blunnies dating back years because he can’t throw them out, he is funny Xx I guess we follow your fashion what with crocs and uggs. We all have a pair of crocs too, are they still fashionable out there ? Everybody I mean everybody is wearing Ugg boots here Xx I am sooooooooo comforted by you Xx and love to hear from you Xx THANK YOU XX my sis beautiful beautiful sis Xx

My Mike Dooley TUT from the universe today read :
What people rarely give themselves credit for, is that their giving continues giving, even after they’ve forgotten giving, and even when they didn’t know they were giving, forever and ever and ever.

THANK YOU For giving me so much this year your love your kindness your understanding your time, gifts that are going to last me an eternity XX and I get to recycle them too, your kindness made me kind and my kindness extended to my friends and family your advice extended to others XXHUGXX

Hope XxI watched Patch Adams last night the Doctor who healed his clients with laughter, I love that film. At the end of the film there were listed references and I noted this one ‘‘Gesundheit Good Health is a laughing matter’’ by Hunter Dohert Adams with Maureen Mylander. I am going to see if I can find it on Amazon Xx thought I would share that with you Xx supports Helens laughter theory Xx

Hope and Jean Xx I looked on Amazon there are several books on how to laugh yourself better, worth a read ? I am finding my horrid overwhelming sense is leaving me now and I am starting to enjoy Christmas. I just keep telling myself I am doing my best and give myself lots of praise for all the things I have achieved. Everytime I thought of the masses of stuff I had to do my chest tightened and I felt horrid so I just started to set myself little lists each day and reward myself emotionally with what I have achieved ticking each one was a great sense of acievement. Ok I did put the ironing away unironed ha ha. I took Brencoots advice and spoke to my husband about my concerns and he has helped me. I took Hope’s advice and my daughter helped me with the cleaning too. Well we all pulled together and it’s all wrapped up. I got my shopping delivered and I put my feet up to watch a movie with my family and I feel a lovely happy glow now. I didn’t write all my Christmas cards yet so I am going to send out Happy New Year cards instead just when they thought it was all over. I usually only send them to friends I haven’t had a chance to see yet I never got to do all of them this year yet I managed to post my long distance presents. Now I just thank my lucky stars how lucky I am to have such wonderful friends, I realise that none of the little things really matter just as long as I have time together with my friends and we look out for eachother and have a good laugh. The state of the house posting cards, doesn’t matter, they still love me. Xx Nothing matters, as my daughter says never mind mummy, its nobodys fault mummy we all try our best Xx