Hello Paul Xx I hope I can help we all see things in a different perspective on here and we are all so close Xx I hope we have empathy, yet true empathy can’t exist because I can not begin to imagine what you are going through Xx we are all here to listen and tell our tale Xxx nobody can give advice we are all different with our own solutions yet we might spark something in you that might give rise to hope and laughter. I hope your not alone at the moment. You said you feel isolated I can feel lonely in a room full of people because I can not connect in a way to them which gives me happiness. Yet pushing myself to go out I have found some of the loveliest people in the world, it sort of makes a vibration I started a wave a ripple towards the one people or person who didn’t make me feel isolated atoms moving through the universe vibrating finding me my soulmates my friends. The loveliest people have appeared in my life, one on a park bench at my daughters school and another person at the recycling centre. My own husband can’t help me because he’s too busy, its not his fault its his way of life and I put on a brave happy cookie baker face. I have to because why not Xx I look at all the good in life all the good in people and the things that I have. You have us now Xxx and hopefully we can bring back happiness into your bubble and all the little atoms can vibrate happiness back into your life Xx I tell of my experiences because I can’t tell you how you feel XX yet I can listen Xx and I am here to support you as best I can Xx hugs xxx chloe