Mike Dooleys TUT for today Xx
Little is more impressive, inspirational, or sexy, than watching someone in the throes of action, driven by purpose, oblivious to all but their aim.

Today has your name all over it -
  The Universe

Hi Jamie, I wouldn’t call not wanting to re-open a can of worms when the sun is shining and your mates are extending an invite for a drink after work self-indulgent.  I’d call it ‘a no brainer!’.  I certainly wasn’t wanting to come across as preaching.  Goodness I would be one to talk. I know that if I feel I have to give something up that I enjoy, I feel like I am being punished and am likely to slip back into my old habits again very quickly.  I was just meaning to share with you that I try to look at things as a temporary interlude that will make my life much better in the long run.  Once you’ve gathered all your tools from your CBT sessions and feel empowered, you may even enjoy your usual Friday night therapy even more!  Roll on!  Hope you have a good week Jamie.  Best wishes, Helen

Jamie xxx how are you today honey XXhugXx isn’t the weather just lush Xxx Chloe

Hi Helen - of course I didn’t think you were preaching - I really value your advice. Thank you. I agree with what you say. I don’t want to run before I can walk and you are right - it’s not forever. That’s probably what I meant - not wanting to miss out on things because I am depressed and to have that as a label around me forever. My Line Manager called me to one side today and said how pleased he was to see me looking and sounding so better and asked me what has changed things. It was nice of him to do that. I couldn’t really pinpoint anything but I said I think the meds are certainly working and I have been thinking more positively and I told him about your wonderful site.
Regards
Jamie

Hi Chloe - I am fine thanks. Been quite a good day ( see my post to Helen above ). Didn’t see K today so will let things lie a bit and hopefully she will have forgotten about it when I next see her. L wasn’t in today - she spends alternate Monday’s with her sister on her Mum’s chemo days. Hope all okay with you. It’s not been so warm here today.
Will try to send that e-mail again.
Jxxx

Hello Jamie xx That is such amazing news xxxx I saw my friend I sent my berkish text to Xxx and they were fine with me Xx they are one of my bestest bestest friends and I would feel so lost without them Xx without them I wouldn’t be strong and its a chain reaction ha ha xxx I love the metaphor of the trees whose roots intertwine because they need eachother to hold eachother up, one trees roots are not enough to hold the tree erect, the trees need eachothers roots Xx Jamie YOUR the wonderful one YOUR the one doing all the wonderful work your amazing so strong XxXXhugXx I took your dog out today he flushed out a few pheasants squire Xx suites you sir Xx teeee heee K is your friend and friends are forgiving kind and caring I really bet she’ll be fine. Good friends are hard to find, I treasure mine with all my heart Xxx L has alot on her plate, ummmm lucky your on the mend hugXx she needs you to be strong for her now and make her smile again XxIt was beautiful here today I put my summer clothes on and I think I have already started to get a tan…..on my nose teeee heeee Xxx ha ha I am thrilled to hear your news XxHUGXx Chloe

I loved that story you told your daughter last night - I want one ! Might make me sleep. If I could have a dog it would be a chocolate labrador or a red or Irish setter. I have never had a dog and I couldn’t possibly have one here. I like sensible intelligent dogs - can’t abide little yappy exciteable ones. When I get my country estate I may have one - ha ha ! Have nearly regained the half stone I lost - yey ! That was a nice post from Helen today wasn’t it ? She’s fab. Stangely I notice things now - like that rather nice Legal Exec’s sexy shoes today ! Ha Ha !
Yes L is having a tough time - wish I could give her a hug.xxx
J xxx

PS - they were black and white leather with a high heel - very sixties - very Mary Quant ! L has a pair like them.

Jamie xxx you don’t need me to make a dream ha ha ha Xxx your funny !!! I had a friend with a shoe fetish when I was single he was funny we walked all around soho and found the most amazing shoes and outfits teeee heee. Did make me laugh at the time we acted like a couple of silly kids, it was a no sex friendship just had lots of fun together and eating out. I remember once a girl friend buying the tallest heeled stilletoes for her boyfriend because he liked her to walk up and down his back in them ouch !!! heee heee your getting your va va voom, cafe (greek word for mojo) mojo back. Suites you sir very sexy Xxx I think you hug L every time you make her smile Xx If I told you the sort of dream you wanted to hear you wouldn’t be able to sleep ha ha. So I am going to bore you to sleep instead teeee heeeee. I did another legs bums and tums tonight and I joined the gym. My husband is being really kind and reasonable to me and hasn’t been mean to me in days. He appologised from the bottom of his heart when I confessed to talking on here, he never realised I liked to chat !!! well he knows I am a chatter box, He said he was really really proud of me, that made a difference. I told my friend today about how unhappy I have been and she said oh I don’t know what to say, how to help. I said you don’t need to help, life sorts it out. Life has a way of dealing with my troubles nice people and situations arise as if by magic. I just need to keep myself busy and time heals Xx Troubles become lifes trivia and I look back and laugh Xx Just trust in the will of heaven and life gets better and better and not let fear cripple my soul. There is always something better around the corner XxhugXx your amazing Jamie really wonderful amazing and you only have yourself to praise Xxx see I knew all along xxhugXx so did Helen Xx I feel honoured to know you and thank you for listening to me xx have I bored you enough Xx heeee hheee sling backs, stillettoes, court shoes, wedgies ah see your still awake Xx My girl friend I visited today we have a mutual friend and she was on the BBC last night filmed in a police memory programme, she is a memory expert, she is usually really carefree laid back and fun and her serious headed face made us roll about in stitches today sooooo funny. Seee you have helped me restored my mojo va va voom too, we have Been rooting for eachother XxhuGxx sweet sexy dreams you bad boy XxChloe

p.s thanks for being my friend Xx you make me smile Xxx hugXx

Whoooooahh ! I do NOT have shoe fetish !! I just liked that girl’s sexy shoes ! Ha ha ! Mind you - I do think I do have a bit of an eye for style… I could be any girl’s straight best friend !!!! Check out Forzieri.com - an Italian fashion web site in Florence. I used to buy L a few bits and pieces off there. Girlie present heaven !
Sweet dreams.
Jxxxx

teeeeee heeeee ok a woman fetish xxxx I love the Italian fashion Xx I have an Italian friend and she wears such gorgeous clothes Xx you make me laugh Xx straight men are great at choosing clothes too Xx I have a gorgeous gay friend that tells me off constantly and a girl friend would wanted to put me on gok Wang so I perhaps I should make more of an effort ha ha Xx hugXx I shall definitely check out the fashion XxxhugXx

Those who are needy of attention, hide from themselves their greatness.

Those who are needy of opportunity, hide from themselves their power to create.

And those who are needy of love, hide from themselves what’s already there.

But boy, oh boy, are they in for a wild ride.

Love you like crazy,
  The Universe

I liked this email today Xx from mike dooley so true Xxx Chloe

especially the bit where it says love is already there hugXxx and always was there and always has been I bet XhugXx your so loved XX because your such a loveable person Xxx Love never dies it just changes Xxx

She’s like a drug, she makes me crazy
makes me go quite haywire
I’m not an acrobat but here I am
I’m on the haywire
My intuition tells me
this has gone quite far enough
If my vertigo kicks in then down I go onto
the hard stuff

Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
dooba dooba dooba dooba dooba dooba ...

She’s like a holiday
she has a way to cheering me up
I need my daily dose
my hit my high my loving cup
Sense the urgency
it’s shaking this dependency
I’m going down while shooting up
I can’t explain this misdemeanour

Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
dooba dooba dooba dooba dooba dooba ...

She’s like a duel at dawn
she has a way of taking me on
I’m not averse to this
I like the way she shakes her fist
The kicks the blows this Alamo
Keeps me on tippy toes and if my hetero
kicks and then down I go
Onto the hard stuff

Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la la la - she’s my little bit of angel dust
Ooh la la la la la - that’s what she does to me
Ooh la la la
I saw this on the right said fred lyrics and I thought of you and your lullaby angel dust called L Xxxx

I was having a think about unrequited love Xxx loving somebody so much it has drove me into a crazy frenzy of need and desire then I thought I am acting like somebody who isn’t getting there own way !!! Like a spoilt child Xx Now is that love ....no….being in love is accepting the rejection and letting it go Xx loving what is and letting it be Xxx loving that person so much that their wish is my command Xx my father called it the rejection syndrome I think I’ll call it the not having my way syndrome. I admire you Jamie for your strength loving L after what you have been through and having that beautiful acceptance that you made her smile, no hate no malice just pure sweet kind loving you Xxx I admire your strength for being so kind and loyal to that love Xx and who knows what the future has in store its always something nice after depression hey what could be worse XxhugXx big hugs of love Xx Chloe