That better be happy music ?????? your listening to

Thanks for being here for me Paul X

I feel better with a change of music, thank you.

i think I was listening to some really sad stuff. It made u tell me that I needed a change.

How is your friend? I hope she is making some progress. I know one things, if she has you as a friend she will pull through.

Paul x

Lyrics look a bit grim…..??? you better listen to something jolly or I’ll get sooooooooo cross with you !!!!

My friend is really well and making a recovery

mmm I will get told off. Something Jolly let me think?

Hello Chloe, how are you? I just wrote a long post to you, but then lost it when I tried to send it cos my computer lost internet connection. I just love computers!!!! They don’t stress me out at all!!!!!!!

I’ve gotten a bit behind on here, but from the bits I’ve read, am I right in saying that you’ve got a job? If you have, congratulations, that’s great news!

You were talking about Miguel Indurain, does that mean you follow cycling? I once read that Indurain’s resting heart rate is so low that it will probably mean that he will die fairly young.

“...you’ll look back and think oh gosh why didn’t I just make the most of my day on this earth because life turned out ok…all the bad were blessings in disguise and stopped life being staid…”< You are right, and wouldn’t it be great if we could all stop worrying about things and try harder to enjoy ourselves more and be happier. I think I’ve said this before, but I’m sure the main reason that we don’t try harder to enjoy ourselves NOW is that we don’t really think we’ll die. Well, we know we will, but it doesn’t feel real. I’m sure that’s the body’s defence to stop us panicking, but if we knew that we were going to die and it felt real, I’m sure we’d all make sure we enjoy our lives more and life them to a much fuller extent, just like so many people do when they hear that they have got a terminal illness.

I can’t remember what else I said before, so I’ll leave it there. I hope you are well. Take it easy, and if you have got a new job, good luck with it!

Hello Paul, how are you? I heard you mention in one of your posts about fear of the future. I completely understand what you mean. It’s so easy for the future to fill us full of fear cos we really don’t know what’ll happen. However, we are all moving into the future every second, so the only thing we can do is move forward, enjoy the now and try to look forward to the future, and try not to let that fear paralyse us and make us stuck in the past. I realise this is soooooo much easier said than done. We will mess up lots of times, but we have to at least keep trying. Doing nothing is the worst thing we can do. If we don’t do anything, we have no chance of improving our situation. Maybe we’ll make it worse before we figure out how to make it better, but if we don’t try, we don’t have any chance of ever figuring out how to make it better. Sorry, I’m waffling now, but I hope you can find the strength and will to have a go! If you mess up, have a good swearing session and then have another bash!

Take it easy.

Chloe Chloe Chloe,you can be you here with us, you know, whether it is a good day or bad day, we are here for you!!!Very pleased to hear about your interview on Monday, are you excited?Well,I am excited for you:-)Guess what?I have an interview on Monday as well. I am excited for the opportunity.I am ready for my new journey, you know, a journey filled with fun&adventure;&happiness;. Hey,do you know that it is the Chinese NY today?Sydney is very much multiculturalism,and the celebrations are every where.It is the year of Rabbit, and I wish you a very happy NY with love,love and more love!!!I am having an easy day today since it is so hot - went for a swim, and checking my messages and found out that I have got a interview on Monday:-)I am so grateful for what I have in life, and I want to thank all my beautiful friends,family and loved one for not giving up on me. Also I want to thank you for myself for not giving up, and not relying on medications for whatever that I have. Yes, I am medicine free for my D, and learning each day to live a better life.We are free,and we can do anything we wish to do in life. Chloe, the way I look at interview is this:it is a chance, and we just need to go for it!!!No matter what happens after that,we need not to worry.Grateful for the chance,and we will nail it if it is meant to be:-)I am ready, I know it.I am bored with myself, and I am ready to start my journey again.I can do it, you can do it, Chloe, and we can do this together, yeah?Thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs and kisses!!!
Hope

Paul,
You are so kind to me. Thank you for your kind words:-) I am taking it easy today since it is sooooo hot again. Went for a swim, and now doing some net surfing!!! Do you believe that GOD has a plan for all of us? I start believing in this. There is a devine plan for all of us, and we just need to live each day to its fullest, then leave the rest to the big boss if you know I mean? I love it when you sing and listen to happy songs, beacause you deserve to be happy:-) 2012 Olympic is going to be in London, and today I said to myself - hey, maybe I can aim to go to London in 2012? Why not? I haven’t been to London yet, but I love to checking it out. Travelling makes me happy, and it is a goal to work towards too:-) Now I just need to nail the job,and work towards my trip etc!!! Don’t laugh at me, but the possibility of all these have made me happy and smiling the whole day:-) It didn’t even cost me a cent for the internal happiness, did it? Also I am ready to work as well. For a while,I was just not into it, but after a few months, I have begun to get in touch with myself and reassessing what’s important in my life & what fulfills me.Gradually,I am touching the groud again,and ready to walk again!!!Yes,I am ready for my next happy journey,and I want to give it my best shot to live the life that I have.I am so lucky to have met you lot here,your encouragement and understanding have let me stay true to myself and not giving up on myself. I want to extend my big thanks to you!!! You are wonderful, Paul:-)
Hope

Dear Hope XX your words are an inspiration and do always fill me with HOPE ...I love the way you think and I love the way you use happy thought processes to make you acheive your goals your hopes your dreams your aspirations. I believe there is a plan yet the plan is no premeditated due to freewill….the plan is fate…and with happy thoughts we create a happier state in our fate..and if our thoughts are negative we create a negative fate. Because with every action there is an equal and opposite reaction…sometimes I wonder if I create what I see in others by being negative towards them they feel that and are negative back..my thoughts that perhaps I should be negative makes the whole process negative. I have found though that being loving could be misinterpretated or frighten people away…then I have to ask myself am I doing the right thing being me ? Then I think being me is doing the right thing…I hope your new job suites you and you enjoy being you within your work Life is about to get lovelier ...I was telling a friend that my anxiety and my fear have actually helped me in the past. She told me about an actress that creates fear before a performance so that she performs better. I do think my mistakes have been my blessings and life has got better as a process of my mistakes. Love you Hope X speak soon gorgeous X Chloe

Yes Paul you are going to get told off when you listen to sad music .....

Albert Einstein once said, “The definition of insanity is
repeating the same action over and over and expecting
different results.”

You listen to that sad music and you feel single lonely and miserable…. !!

She’s on her way…shes just doing her hair….you’ll meet somebody soooooon X

Brencoot Xx I love what you wrote about dying so true   Oh I hate the thought of dying. I have a job interview on Monday ...beginning to feel very sick…why ? it’s only an interview ha ha…great practice nice people thinking ..would I fit in would I work well with them ? If they don’t choose me they’ll be doing me a favour…yet its the being judged bit I guess ..?? I remember being at a cattle market with my ex husband and these little tiny calfs are put in the ring ..their eyes are big and scared and these people are bidding on them..shouting and the little calves are soooooooo scared…girls in nightclubs and the sailors are wondering which girl to dance with ? nooooooooo what am I thinking ...!! it’s not like that…??? ha ha ha ha ha Oh I just hate all that judging..on trial ...rejection !!!! ahhhhhhh ...I’ll be alright whatever happens I’ll be ok..I won’t starve loose my home, I’ll just have practiced for the big one YO ! Yes I used to follow tour de france with an ex it was great fun and I loved the metaphor how the strongest rider actually pulled the others along with his fast pace because the others were keeping up with him then went faster than they would have gone alone. Your attitude does that ‘B’ strong tough wise ...makes the rest of us balanced X ok ok you don’t like compliments ...tee hee X LIFE IS ABOUT TO GET LOVELIER X Chloe

Paul

I just wanted to say ..your music is fine ..its you and it makes you happy…well I hope it makes you happy…??? I have no right to judge your music ...I was just having a giggle with you ok…Hope your ok   Chloe

True, not everyone is “meant to” have their own yes.

For many, even dreaming of such things is virtually impossible.

Fortunately, you’re neither of those people.

And it’s no coincidence,
  The Universe

Not sure I understand this one today Mr Dooley…I know it’ll suddenly dawn on me ..what it means ..!