I wasn’t playing games - I don’t do that kind of stuff - haven’t got the intelligence or the nerve ! It was just annoying because it ruined a nice moment and now I think she’s gone home thinking all kinds of stuff which just isn’t the case. It was just really bad timing. I know I know - I should just laught it off but when it comes to L it’s taken so long to get back to this stage and I don’t want to ruin it - most of all I don’t want her to think I am seeing this girl because I am not. I wish she had’nt spoken to me in front of her but I don’t think she knows of my history with L.

Ps - I like Paddington cause he’s friendly, trusting and cute and everyone likes him. And he has a cool hat and coat ! I had all the books when I was a child.

Jxx

Thank you for your kind words - I am ok - guess it proves I am alive and popular I guess ! There’s another video of Santana and Michelle Branch on You Tube called “I’m feeling you” which is pretty much about that - feeling free and alive. It’s got that same party happy groove as the other one. I love Santana - do you know he never learned how to read sheet music because he ” was learning to live” - he’s amazing for a man of 60 odd to be doing what he does and all those latino girls love him. Jxx

Hi - it was all ok - just like you said it would be. Always listen to Chloe - note to self. Hope your day was good. Jxx

oh gosh sorry I never got back to you Xx busy day I put one of my sugar addicted clients on my potaoes not prozac diet I hope it works and she doesn’t have the need to eat sugar. Hopefully her brain chemistry should be happy enough not to need a sugar rush high because her meals should make her more content mentally fingers crossed it works she also has marissa’s book for self confidence. Hey don’t listen to my advice one of my rules is not to be a fix it merchant just a empathetic friend. Yet you do fix it for me with my cognitive development being kind and giving me praise. My soon to be ex husband builds me up yet he can knock me down when he is tired he tells me off for this and that and the other thats why I do prefer to be on my own. I have been expected to stand on my own two feet since I was 7 sent off to boarding school on a coach change at chichester and have old ladies sit with me saying you are good to travel all this way at your age. I used to go on the train luckily Littlehampton and Portsmouth harbour were both the end of the line so if I fell asleep it wouldn’t matter the guard would give me a nudge. I guess I am a stubborn old taurean taught to be independant at such a young age I like to think I can think for myself sadly I annoy people because I am my own boss. I must never fix it with you Jamie because you are the only person who can fix whatever it is you set out to fix. Your amazing ability to say all the kindest things you say to me you need to reflect back at yourself and be kind to my friend Jamie I know I must listen to my inner voice and look at the evidence I have plenty of time and nobody is going to run out on me and if they do they leave a void to fill and another person fills it. I look at people who cope on their own and I model myself on their strength and happiness Xx

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Dang, you just keep acing time and space.

Big time,
  The Universe

Hello Chloe, how are you doing? And how’s your daughter cos you said in one of your posts she’d had trouble breathing? I hope you are both OK.

I also noticed you said that if you don’t want something to get worse, you shouldn’t talk about it. Interesting!

Any plans for this weekend?

Can you believe it’s July already!?! Time just flies, and it’s right what they say, that it seems to get quicker as we get older.

Well, I hope you are doing OK. Take it easy

Hi Chloe and Brencoot. My tropical fish are wearing shorts and shades because it’s soo hot in here ! Do you know I actually look forward to getting up and going to work because it’s cooler outside ! No need to apologise Chloe - I know longer expect an immediate response ! That was the old me - grrr I sent a text ten minutes ago and that person hasn’t replied - they must hate me!! What was I thinking ?
They say laughter is good for you because it releases endorphins and I can honestly say that I was howling with laughter today in Court as were the jury at the antics of one of my barristers friends who is just the funniest man ! He is a complete shambles but such a nice man and I am so lucky to have a job that brings me into contact with people like him and K who I chatted to today.
I think I am very much like you in terms of having to be independent. I have been on my own for a long time and yet I adored my holidays to Italy on my own. Travelling around on the trains and exploring was fab ! It made me think on my feet and yet I experienced the most extraordinary kindness and company of complete strangers. The worst thing you could ever do to me is force me to go on a package holiday to Spain where I am stuck in a beach resort for two weeks. It is my worst nightmare. I loved travelling and being Italian for a week - I was disappointed if I heard an English voice ! It was character building but I felt safer and happier there than I have done in this country.
Maybe when I become pecunious again I may plan a trip !
Jxx

Brencoot Xx My daughters breathing is now fine she has improved enormously…she doesn’t squeak or rattle anymore Xx believing in serendipity as I do ..I got that as message about talking about things from Mike Dooley and the day before I got the message my ex boyfriend had told me I was weak and I annoyed him because I had spoken about us to a mutual aquaintance it was about his and mine arguing. I thought about the being weak and thought yes he had a point. It was weak and I should of held it in then Mike dooley gave me a post and it read something similar. I found each and every time somebody asked about my boyfriend and I had to say we had finished I felt an awful pain…I thought about the tut about talking about something and I have given it alot of thought. I now think and change the subject because yes talking about sad stuff makes me feel like crap ha ha. Some people reach a level of maturity before others and I guess I need to reach that level and keep my business to myself yes I need to grow up ha ha and toughen up. I guess off loading should only be singled out to my best friend. The only thing is I feel I dump my rubbish on my friends if I tell them my hurts. A friend defends me whereas a stranger might put my faults in a better perespective and thus not encourage me to make the same mistakes. ...A friend might say there there there and make me not realise my faults and improve and evolve in my own spiritual maturity. My greatest teachers have been the greatest criticisers. However its a killer if I don’t get praise ha ha ..Being annoying I think was a personality clash with my boyfriend. Lucky for me he was honest I respect his honesty really hurt yet it was a blessing to be told before we became more permanent. How are you ? Xx

Jamie Xx A trip sounds excellent fun…I used to book flights on the spare of the moment and sort out the accomodation when I got to the other end. I used to give my mum kittnes yet I would say it was a mystery tour. Now with my daughter I would need to plan a trip because a mystery tour might turn into a misery tour ha ha. Helen says a smile releases endorphins. I have friends who crack me up we are all off out tomorrow night, I don’t drink yet I can have the most wonderful time being with them. I best go to bed now I have been spinning tonight it was great fun the people there made me laugh they were such a jolly bunch Xx speak tomorrow xx Chloe

I bought the stereo phonics the other day I like some on the songs on there ...I shall look up the lyrics Xxx