Thank you so much Chloe. Your kind words and thoughts have helped. I think I will have an early night and will catch up with you all again tomorrow.
Hugs and kisses right back at you

Hope you having a wonderful day XX We love you very much Xxx We do love you very much Xx

Now they are all wanting to speak to my boss next week. I don’t know how to feel. I suppose betrayed. I thought we always got on ok. I mean they have to have a boss, and if its not me it will be someone else. Although I am scared to find out what they actually think of me. If I can just get through today I will have a good cry later. Isn’t it awful when you can feel yourself welling up but it really isn’t the place…....

How are you doing Elaine? Did everything go OK today at work? I hope so. There are times when things just seem to spiral out of control, aren’t there? Hang in there and I’m sure things will get better soon.

So you work in the restaurant industry? Do you enjoy it? It’s an industry I’ve had a few thoughts about, but scared to take the plunge.

Well, I hope you are OK and I hope you get some time to relax this weekend, although I suspect you’ll be working again.

Don’t let the ba5tard5 grind you down!!!

Hello Chloe and Kayfer, how are you both? Any plans for the weekend?

Kayfer, anything new in your life recently? Did you ever have any luck with thos dance classes?

Chloe, how are the animals? It’s supposed to be quite a nice weekend this weekend, if a little cold, so it should be nice for walking. My marathon was last Sunday, so it’s all done now.

Well, hope you are both OK and have a nice weekend.

Hi Brencoot, yeah I am a Restaurant Manager. Its far from glamorous. Today didn’t turn out too bad. Its clear the chef just cant do her job and I have followed all the rules and my manager backed me up - so far.. And that made me feel a whole lot better. Except I had told her about my second job as a care assistant and she told my boss that she suspected it was affecting my full time job. But I will go in on Monday and show that I have the upper hand. How dare she…
Do we all get wrapped up in ourselves or is it just me??
So Brencoot, what do you do for a living? And all the others. I think work says alot about a person and I think it is a good starting point for conversation and getting to know each other. And I would quite like to talk about something other than the depression….

Dear Elaine, unpredictability seems to be the name of the game in management doesn’t it?  That certainly means it’s never boring but that can also mean it’s not easy and sometimes I’m sure that you’d give anything for boring and easy!  You’re only human as are your bosses as are your staff.  Human beings have emotions and everyone is wonderfully unique and different which doesn’t make it easy to apply rigid and formal protocols and rules every time to everyone.  I’m sure if protocols and rules had emotions they would bend too.  Thinking of you Elaine.  I hope that you’re not working all weekend.  Helen

Hello beautiful elaine XXXX I am thinking of you too XXXXX I tell myself whatever happens what ever people might say it’s just their perception !!! doesn’t mean they know you Xxx we LOVE YOU XXX Hey your wonderful enough for me XXX Whatever you did whatever you say I believe you had the intention to do your best Xxx I love what Helen has written soooo beautiful so true Xxx please don’t be blue, be proud to be you XXXX LOVE YOU XXXXX I mean for you to LOVE YOU XXXX please LOVE YOU WONDERFUL YOU XXX

I hope it all went well at work Xxx thinking of you Xxxx

I was thinking nobodys perfect Xx us humans crucified Jesus and you wouldn’t get more perfect than him, I guess he didn’t follow protocol ops ! XXXX

I heard some of you say that you went to councelling or at least you spoke to someone about how you felt. Can I ask if this has been a doctor referral or is it a group or organisation that you have independantly contacted? I need someone to talk to…..

I was the victim of a sexual assault and soon after I became really ill. I went to see a NHS councellor and as soon as the hour was up I was left hanging with all this sad emotion. oh gosh that was so horrid and she just cross examined me, over and over putting words in my mouth. She then started telling me all her problems in sessions and what would I do. I then had CBT a year after my recovery because of the waiting list and that was in a group and that was wonderful. I have had life coaching and hypnotherapy that was FANTASTIC therapy really professional and my salvation. I would carefully choose a councillor who specialises in what happened to you. Have you spoken to the experts on here they are really excellent peofessionals and they would know which therapy would be best XXXHUG YOU XXX LOVE YOU XXXXgood luck beautiful lady Xx depression is about change Xx THINGS ARE GOING TO GET BETTER XXXXX

I forgot to say I am a hypnotherapist. I had my counselling therapy 11 years ago and CBT 10 years ago so things might have improved. I missed your post to Brencoot and have just read it Xx I have been a hypnotherapist for over 1 year and I love the results Xx I became better after seeing hypnotherapists and NLP therapists and life coaches so my intention for the past 8 years was to become a hypnotist. It’s my way of making others better like me Xx

Hello Brencoot for some reason I missed your post Xxx WELL DONE with the marathon, gosh you are amazing Xxx I have missed you XXXX glad to hear from elaine as well HIGS XXXXX I bought some oat milk today !!! I have been drinking soya and I also bought some rice milk again so I can see which is my favourite Thanks Brencoot you are a constant reminder to me to look after myself better I am listening to you. You are a wonderful role model, a tour de france leader, we all need a good act to follow THANKS XXXhugs XXXX

I just don’t think I am where you are yet. I feel completely vunerable and almost wish I could check myself in again to the phsychiatric hospiatl for a rest.