Thanks Helen. Your best wishes are much appreicated. I am going to go out and have a few G & T of my own with my husband.
I am all work and no party, I am afraid. I like to come on line to relax and chat to my new friends.
Chat soon

WOW happy birthday BEAUTIFUL LADY XXXXX yes I agree with Helen Xx busy people should celebrate later in style Xxx Hey we’re exstatistic (ecstatic) to hear from you XXXX HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU , BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL YOU XXXX sorry its late I was having a bad hare day said me the slow coach tortoise. GREAT BIGGGGGG BIRTHDAY HUGS XXXXX sorry it’s late Xx

Kayfer I was having a think about Marissa’s passion bit. I have read it in lots of different guises. You wondered what your passion is. Well it’s going to find you. Wait and it’ll find you. Mine did, My passion for psychology found me. I couldn’t get on the other courses and the only course that would accept me was the psychology department and I had never studied it before in my life. Richard branston destiny found him, he didn’t sit back and say this that and the other, fate found him. You just need to believe, believe you’ll find it and let destiny flow. I was watching the celestine prophecies and they back up Marissa and so does wayne dyer. Wayne Dyer says when you believe it you’ll see it. The secret says the same believe you’ll have it and you’ll have it, and be careful what you wish for and even the song mary’s prayer. However you need to trust in the will of heaven and fate should bring your passion to you. I know because I think to myself what shall I do and I am doing it now, it just happened I got hooked talking to you, I never knew I had it in me to talk to people on here it just evolved, and I am here. Then hypnotherapy came when I needed to give up smoking and then I had this need to help people and so my hypnotherapy was born and I love it. It is my passion and it gets me out of bed in the morning. I hope you understand me Kayfer just let fate flow and you’ll follow your heart to your destiny your passion is on its way your new friends your new life is bringing it all to you. There is no rush it’ll come and you’ll be really happy Xx I just know Xx love your crazy sister XXXXX

Hi Chloe

What a lovely message from you - thank you for that, it really made me smile and feel warm inside. I do think you could be right though and that I will be very happy soon, Im pleased to say that my depression has lifted a great deal in this last week, I have had five good days in a row and feel so relieved about that, im beginning to feel like me again, we’ve been to some friends tonight for dinner which made a lovely change as not seen them in ages but I was fine going - I wouldnt have managed it two weeks ago, so I feel thats a good sign for me. My lifecoach is brill and my counselling is going well, Im also still listening to Marissa CD each night, I have been for 3 weeks now and am beginning to feel different in myself, i really belief it is working for me.

oh I also want the to get hold of The Secret, I know you’ve highly recommended it but on my ‘coping with change’ course recently, just about everyone was raving about it so Ive got to have it soon, before christmas would be nice.

Oh and I went on my first run of many yesterday with my neighbour and I felt really good afterwards so Im going to do that every Friday and perhaps once a week on my own as think twice a week would be better.

Happy Belated Birthday to you Elaine, hope you had a good one.
Kayfer x

So good to hear from you Xxx so good to hear you so positive Xx mind you you always are tenacious xx your an amazing woman xx I love the DVD the secret, however you have to pretend to be living the dream, actually see through your eyes, not see yourself as a person from a distance pretend to see through your eyes so when you imagine you are seeing your hands if you get my drift. I used to imagine I was driving my new car when I was driving my old car. Imagine I could see what I can see now. The field, the goats, the sheep, the pony !!! I even asked a friend to pretend with me to make it stronger and it worked, or was it just coincidence ha ha we’ll never know. Bearing in mind it was this time last year I pretended I could see it and now its here. I found I had to be patient and not give up. I just knew it would arrive. Have you watched what the bleep do you know ? that’s a great DVD too. However I find manifesting can drive me mad. I rather prefer the I am enough, that can change my perception and create balance and restore contentment. Thinking positive is a great way to start, turning everything around to a lesson a journey a message a lesson, knowing it’s for the greater good and accepting fate is acting for you not against. Giving is a great way of receiving. Sharing energy, love and giving my time is the greatest way for me to receive abundance, I am lucky and blessed in return, almost to a point it is unbelievable how lucky I can be. I found being unconditional is the true way to create the wealth health and happiness in my life, not stealing somebody elses energy or attempting to control people, not even my daughter, I discipline her fine, I guide her between right and wrong yet I love her to be a free spirit when she choses her clothes or her interests. I am glad you are ok because I worry about you XXX HUGS XXX

Elaine Xxx sending you lots of love and best wishes Xx

Hello Elaine, how are you? I haven’t been on here for a few days and I’ve noticed that I missed your birthday, so sorry about that and a very late Happy Birthday! It’s a shame you didn’t get time to celebrate it, but if you are OK with that, it’s OK. I’m not sure whether you are OK with that or not though. I hope you managed to relax and enjoy yourself at least a bit over the weekend.

Hello Brencoot how are you Xx I am still in the routine of having a power walk thanks to your inspiration. When are you running your marathon you did say and I forget now. Hope you and your family are well Xx

Hello Elaine XXx hope you are well and happy HUGS XXX

My birthday was great because it gave me an excuse to drink Friday, Saturday and Sunday, except this is Tuesday and everything seems better after a drink. I just may have a problem. But I am admitting nothing.
How is everyone else.
I know I am certainly bored listening to me

I have just got in from a mums night out with the school and most of my friends are drunk. I sadly can not drink anymore, I just have lost the desire to get drunk which is really strange, just wish I lost the desire to eat chocolate lol. I did more power walking today and watched Elizabeth the movie, really gruesome how they tortured them yikes. I shall watch the rest tomorrow and the spanish armarda. I had a clear out like Jean, because my daughters school asked us to donate clothes for the homeless. How was your day Xx

Today is one of those days where I was I could be the one washing the dishes. Instead I have had to have words with one of my staff today and it hasn’t ended so good. My boss is giving me hassel about sacking the chef when she is still on her 3 month probationary period. I admit that she may have her faults and by no means is perfect but who could ever find fun in sacking someone. I try today and have her understand that to save her job she needs to do A, B and C. Where has that got me. She now wants to speak with my superiors and I am shitting it. I am in serious bother if I haven’t followed protocol.

So I wish I was the girl over washing the dishes who doesn’t have responsibilities (or rather small ones) or the pressure or the constant tirage of complaints from people. But I couldn’t survive on that girls wage…...
AHHHHHHH

Hey sounds like you had a rotten day Xx I really hope you bosses empathise with you, your an extention of them and they should trust you and respect you and appreciate you are doing your best. I once made a mistake at work, I was a lab technician and I was facing all sorts I got called into the director of the laboratory office and he said whatever happens we stand together and we can take the rap between us, I was gob smacked I never knew people like him existed and they do. Hope your boss is a great boss and stands by you. Because then they are following protocol. Anyway they discovered it wasn’t my fault it was a lack of communication and I had done my job properly. I was watching the movie Elizabeth, Nostrodarmous told her when she was facing the Armarda you can flee you can cry you can blame others or you can sore like the eagel spread your wings and rise to the challenge. My best friends mum said to me it’s not the problem it’s how you handle it. Another friend uses the psychology ‘I did it on purpose’ they say I got out of bed this morning with the sole intention of upsetting you- NOT!!!you went to work wanting a happy easy relaxed day you didn’t ask for upset, you want things to go well to be praised thanked and rewarded for your efforts. it just happened. We are all just in the process of life, lifes purpose, these things happen, they happen for a reason and in hindsight its not as bad as it feels now. Gosh I have left some jobs and it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me, or I have had a spot of bother and it has improved my life for the better in the long run Xx I am thinking of you Xxx this is a blip Xx when things like this happen to me my husbands says what is the lesson you have learnt. I sometimes turn it around and bless the opportunity I had for having the lesson and the experience because I normally need to have learnt it for my destiny or the life journey, it usually improves life for me. Now I just save it for the journey my little bag of experiences or lessons taking me to better things. Because now I can look back and be grateful for all the mistakes I have made in the past. Laugh beautiful lady Xxx laugh at your beautiful mistakes Xxx Now I attempt to look back and laugh because given time I most probably do. I usually have this attitude after a good bloody cry and feel sorry for myself. Then I know I have to snap out of it or I’ll sink I have to be positive. I have to turn it around, stop the ship from sinking detach the emotion and move on. Your not designed to wash dishes you are designed to dodge bullets and your must remember the truth will out and it all gets better XXXX storm then calm Xx rainbow Xx HUG YOU XX LOVE YOU XXX smile XX things better XXXX hey marissa said you must sing a positive song in your head, it helps me. plus the other girl must learn from her lifes message her lesson her experiences it’s a shame you had to be the messanger she’ll realise in time when she doesn’t have the emotion. She ‘ll sit there and think oh gosh what was I like and I hope she laughs about it too. If she doesn’t get it she’s going to have alot of jobs or hopefully she’ll find somewhere she is happy Xx everybody benefits when things go wrong it’s because things need to change. Nobodys perfect, thats impossible we all learn as we grow and we mature. We would still be in horse and cart Thomas Edison would never have made the light bulb and we would be imperfect perfects not realising if we made mistakes things could only get better. In my psychology book it said nice bosses usually fail because their staff don’t give them feedback in fear of hurting their feelings, yet nasty bosses thrive because the staff give them loads of grief and thats great for improvement. you’ll make sure you follow every bit of protocol the next time, you’ll be perect XXHUGXX and she would have taught you to be teeee heee. Even in relationships the best way of making up is when we’re breaking up.( I think they are the words). ‘Things can only get better’ XXX thats my happy song, whats yours ? Xxx Have you got a song ? p.s your boss might have learnt a lesson too. Lifes a bitch she is full of little testing you lessons, before you get bored of her stop evolving and stagnate Xx

Sad and all as it is, I would be a drunken mess and quite happy to wallow in my own self pity and found dead after weeks if it wasn’t for my husband, whom I can’t bear to continually hurt.

He sounds like a wonderful man Xx bet he loves his WONDERFUL wife Xxx You hang in there Elaine Xxx HUGS XXXXX
you’ve met more people now who care about you so the pressures on now XXXHUGS XXX where would we be without you Xx we would fail to exist without you Xx your strength keeps us all going we rely on you XX don’t stop being you Xx you shine xx